Blinded in Myself

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*Sia's POV*

"Are you okay?" Kyle asked me. I wiped my tears quickly.

"I'm fine," I said. He sits next to me.

"You're not fine. You can tell me what's going on" He said so softly.

I stood up. "I'm fine! Are you deaf? I don't need you. I have enough people in my life, you can go!" I shouted. I can see him harden his jaw, I think he's angry or upset. Then he stood up and slammed the door. And here I am, continue my crying. It's suffocating enough, I don't want anyone to walk in my life and make it more miserable.

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It's been 2 weeks since I fought with Kyle, I've never seen him after that. For the distraction, I've been tracking this person who keeps bugging me.

"God, Nate. Can you be any faster?" I rolled my eyes at him. By the way, Nate Alfred was my classmate, but he moved to a male boarding school in Norway, it's because his parents found out that he went to a drug club. He's a hacker, and I needed him to help track down the location of that person.

"You need my help, remember?" I groaned. "And it's only 15 seconds, God!" He said. We were video calling.

"Yeah yeah yeah whatever" I rolled my eyes.

"Got it!" I blinked my eyes fast. "Last time, it's in The Grand Cub, now that person is in The Grad Cub, I'll text you if that person moves"

"OMG! I love you, Nate" I said with sending kisses emoticon to him.

"Yeah..yeah, I know you didn't mean it" We both chuckled. After I hung up, I changed my clothes. I wore a black tank top, and jeans, also with my bomber jacket, along with my sneakers. I drove my Audi, there's a lot more in the basement, but the closest one to the gate is this Audi. I drove so fast to The Grand Cub. The Grand Cub is a nightclub owned by George Hemmington, he's in Gallagher's group but I heard he moved to Kyle's. He's not that outstanding, Gallagher always used him to get a VIP room in The Grand Cub, because The Grand Cub is the most luxurious night club here, and only the one with money can go here.

I parked my Audi, close enough to the way out. In case, I need to run out fast.

"Hola," I said to Gale, the head of security. We're friends because I went there a lot, you know the mystery, and some mysteries involved The Grand Cub in it.

"Why are you here, again?" He crossed his arms on me.

"Oh come on!" I cried out so childly.

"Don't be such a baby, only 18 is allowed here" He shook his head.

"Oh come on! Don't be such a big brother. I'm a good girl" I crossed my arms.

"A good girl won't barge into a nightclub, especially in an illegal way" I pouted. "Kidding" Then he chuckled. I headed to the bar.

"Whiskey, please," I said to the bartender, oh, by the way, he's Rex, I know him too. He winked to me.

"Yes, Ms." I chuckled.

"What brings you here, this time?" He said as he poured some whiskey to my glass.

"It's someone bugging me"

"You think everyone is bugging you, Nyx" You heard it right, people outside the school and the bistro called me Nyx, it's kind of my fake name when I'm in an investigation. Nyx means the Greek Goddess of the night, and mostly for my investigation, I did that in the night.

I only smiled at him, I took a look around, everyone's busy playing. Some in the arcade, some in the bar, and some on the dance floor. I couldn't find anyone suspicious. This game is going to last longer than I thought.

"Long night, Ms?" A guy sat next to me. "You're not going to answer, hm?" I stared at my half-filled glass. "Fuck you, just because you have a pretty face, you can be so arrogant," He said so loudly.

I looked at him. "Fuck off, before I rip your head and take out all of your intestines," I said with my cold voice, his face turned pale.

"You crazy!" He said as he runs.

The bartender chuckled. "Are you a murderer, Nyx? I've always wondered about that"

"What do you think?" I raised my eyebrow.

"I think..you've ever done something bad" He tried to read my face. I only smiled at him.

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I spent 5 hours there, and go home empty-handed.

"It moves, but I can't find it. It's turned off"

Nate texted me.

"It's gone"

He texted me again. With my grumpy face and uneasy heart, I walked out. I'm cursing in my head, this is the only time I failed my investigation. I think this person knows that I'm chasing them. God, I'm so mad right now.

I took a cab way back home. Bee called me several times, but I just ignore her, she's just going to nag me or just babbling around, and I'm not in any mood to do anything, also I'm not in the mood to explain my mood. I opened the door, and it's so dark. I walk to my bedroom, threw myself to the bed, and just think about anything.

Sometimes, I just don't want to move or to think. Just to think of breathing, makes me suffered. The word 'life' suffocated me. I don't think I'm the only one to feel that, but I do think I'm one of them.

"The feeling when I can't sleep
The reason that I want hidden"

I heard someone plays a song, then I opened my eyes to see it from my window. That song was from Kyle's room, I can hear it clearly.

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I'm so startled and have no clue, that there will be lots of events in my school and that makes me so busy like really busy! I'm so sad, and I just want to quit, but I can't and that makes me sadder. But I have you guys and love you.

XOXO

Mintsoda