365 days before

Luke's life

"Luke?" Mike asks. "Mhm"

"Why are you smiling?"

I look up from my phone, not smiling at all. He's grinning. "I don't smile." i say in a serious voice. "Oh C'mon Luke, you were beaming from ear to ear. What did you read?"

"I was texting Calum and he told me a funny joke?" I say, not sure if this lie was bad or super-duper bad. "Oh, what joke? Tell me!" Mikey speaks, a little bit to enthusiastic. "Uhm" okay the lie was worse than i thought. "Let me look through our conversation." I say to play out time. "My stupid phone won't load" I say and roll my eyes while i'm searching in google for "jokes to crack you up" 

"So uhm.. I found it, it's 'How do men define a "50/50" relationship? We cook-they eat; we clean-they dirty; we iron-they wrinkle.' it's so funny, isn't it?" I say, trying not to sound sarcastic, i may should have paid attention to the website i was clicking on, it's called www.amandashome.com and it's a website for women to make fun of men. 

"Everybody knows that Cal has lost his phone. He even posted it on twitter and insta 1 hour ago, i just wanted to see how far you would get to hide that you were stalking her again." he's full on laughing now. "and no, that wasn't funny at all"

"Hey, i wasn't stalking her!" I say buck-wild "I may have read her text again?" I add quickly. "Oh man" he shakes his head in amusement. 

"Why did you even ask when you knew it anyway?" I ask. I sound a bit irritated but I can't change it right now. I know that he doesn't like the idea of me looking through the same fanacc over and over again but Ash's doing the same and he isn't judged. Okay maybe it is like this because Ashton stalks a girl named Pria, who's hot as fuck and i look through an account who hasn't even posted a selfie yet. I just like her because of her tweets and the letter she sent me a few month ago. I mean it isn't a real letter, it's a long text on twitter but you can tell how much love.. okay i should stop. Like i know that i get a tons of storys every day and that i shouldn't seperate hers from the others but.. the way she wrote it, it gets me every time, the way she framed it actually hurts a bit.

"Because i love to see how you search desperate for a good excuse" He says severe. "Because you know that i think it's stupid and that's why you would never tell me voluntary about it. So I get my jollies." "You're way to honest" I sigh. "I know" he nods in agreement and smiles at me. "We should get up, soundcheck is in 2 hours and cal will kill us if we both are gonna be late again." 

"Yeah" I half-smile back. 

"Don't be silly Lukeeeeeeeeey, I love you and you know thaaaaat. I don't have to agree with everything you do, do I?" He looks at me and punches my shoulder lightly. I flinch a little but try to look a little bit happier and stand up. "Let's go!" 

"Sorry but I first have to grab some food. I only eat 1 apple like 3 hours ago and i'm craving food. We have to stop at the next Mc Donalds, hope that's okay for you?" 

"No, I want you to die of starvation." I say drily and grin at him. "Did you hail a cab?" "No, we don't need one." I speak. "Marie'll drive us."

"Sorry, but who's Marie?" "New Stylist, she sleeps in another hotel not far from us" i answer districted while i'm looking on my phone again to send text-message Marie.

"Kay, Luke, i really wanna go now but you maybe should change your shirt? There's chocolate on it." He chuckles.

20 minutes later we're sitting in Marie's rental car and i feel.. how can i describe this.. like an outsider? First of all am I the one to sit one the back-seat. Michael and Marie won't stop talking and laughing while i am.. doing nothing. Marie's face turns for a moment in my direction and she says :"Oh Luke, i still can't believe that you're 17." 

"Oh you would believe it if you'd hang out with him like literally all the time. He's such a child."

"Mike!" I say. "You're the childish one and I turn 18 in 18 days so shut it." I pout. 

"You're the childish one" he copycats me in a high-pitched voice. "I don't talk like that!" "I don't talk like that!" He repeats in the same voice as before. I want to say "shut up" but i stop myself and say nothing instead. 

"Stop teasing him" Marie laughs. "You're only 1 year older" 

"Not even!" I add.