Talk Fast {Jesse Lingard}

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    'I'm so sorry I didn't see you.' I fumbled back into my room back first. I caught myself before I could fall and just hated myself for being such a clumsy person.
    'It's all good.' He smiled walking in even though I didn't invite him. He smiled at the posters and the pictures hanging up, but one caught his eye. It was me and Marcus when we were five in front of our school with our book bags ten times bigger than our bodies. We were smiling so wide and hugging so hard it was the cutest thing and probably my favorite picture.
     'This is probably the cutest thing i've seen.' He laughed and placed it back on my desk top. I watched him scan the room and then I went about picking out some comfortable clothes just letting him be. If Marcus trusted him, I know I could so I let him look around. I was heading to the bathroom to change when Jesse called me to come back.
    'Hey so I leave tomorrow, Marcus doesn't leave until like weeks from now but I have to visit my family. I just wanted to say I had a great time and it was really nice to meet you Soleia.' He smiled and I literally melted like a puddle of water onto the floor. He was so sweet but i'm just a little sister. I smiled at him.
    'I'm glad you had a great time, and that you came! It was great to meet someone who has to deal with that annoying boy all the time too.' I laughed and he stepped closer to me. It's been less than a day that we've known each other and I know that I probably shouldn't even think about proceeding with what would happen next because Marcus would probably be so mad at me. But Jesse's pull was so strong and before I even knew it we were kissing. I thanked god I closed the door behind me before entering because of the noise outside from cleaning. It wasn't even like a short 'hey that was random' kiss, no. It was long and heavy and my hands were in his hair and his hands were on my back pulling me closer but I knew better, I did. But why didn't I pull away? We both pulled away at the same time and I was shocked so I didn't say anything.
     'Soleia i'm really sorry I don't know what got to me.' He barely whispered probably afraid of someone outside.
    'Ha ha, no problem me either. It was an accident no worries.' I said and he looked confused.
    'It wasn't an accident, I mean I meant to but not so soon and I'm stupid for not even considering that maybe you wouldn't have wanted to kiss me back.' He said and  now I was shocked.
    'I mean trust me I wanted to, but Marcus might be uncomfortable, and you probably have no interest in someone four years younger than you.' I said and I grabbed my pijamas and head to the bathroom. I didn't let him explain because we were wrong. We didn't even know each other like that and I literally made out with him. I slumped to the bathroom floor internally beating myself up for doing something so stupid, how would i even tell Marcus? The possible answers were running through my mind when I heard three soft knocks on the other end of the door. Part of me wished it was my sister because she'd know what to do, another part wanted it to be Marcus so that we could lock ourselves in the bathroom and talk about stupid stuff just like old times. Also, a very small part of me wanted it to be Jesse, that part of me wanted him to come and tell me he actually was interested in me and I was over reacting. I slightly opened it and once I saw Marcus's face everything melted away from my mind. I smiled and let him come in and he sat in the bathtub as I sat by the door.
      'I cant wait to spend more time here with you. It's been crazy in Manchester. But you know Jesse has made it so much easier, i'm glad you two get along.' He smiled at the wall and I just laughed a little. Yeah we do get along, too well.
     'Yeah I'm happy too.' I smiled and he looked over to me.
     'I think you like Jesse and i'm not surprised but he's older than us you know. He's charming but he's a bit much no?' Marcus stared at me and I felt a lump rise in my chest.
    'Me? Like him? Are you crazy? First of all, he's a pretty boy and second of all he wouldn't go for me okay? We are two different people.' I said confidently with no hesitation and it sold Marcus. Unfortunately it sold Jesse too because when he was leaving the next day he just waved and drove off. It hurt a little but it was for the best. I never stopped having a stupid crush on Jesse and he never went away either.