Talk Fast {Jesse Lingard}

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    'Uh yeah I have to unpack and settle in before Monday.' I shrugged. It's not that I didn't want to hang out with him, because on this walk home I realized how enjoyable his company is. The problem was that I was feeling guilty, and I knew myself so well that I knew I was going to start having some type of feelings, so I had to push him away for a little.

    'I can come over and help you out, I know it sounds annoying but I don't know, thought I could help.' He smiled rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. I gave him a weak smile and just as I was about to respond Luna came back with Gilberto.

    'Of course you can! I'll just let her know to put all her important stuff away now so that when you come you don't break anything.' She laughed and Marco blushed. I guess he had broken something prior to this.
    'Well then he will see you tomorrow! Buenas noches!' Gilberto smiled and we all waved good bye. When we walked into the house Luna rose her eyebrow at me.
    'No no Luna, I have a boyfriend and I really love him.' I hurried to explain myself and she chuckled.
     'Ay mija, I know you aren't in love with little Marco. I just observed the way you looked. You were nervous, there was something in your eyes. I don't doubt for a minute that you love your boyfriend but maybe you are having a little tug on your heart for Marco. It happens.' She stated simply like it was no big deal, but it was a big deal. First of all it's playing with their hearts and I cannot do that. On top of that, they are both beloved footballers, the fans and the media would chew me alive.

     'No, even if I was to say yes, it's a no.' I shook my head and she placed her hand on my shoulder.

    'My late husband and I met when we were fourteen correct? Between fourteen and sixteen there was fifteen. My fifteenth year was crazy because I had met this amazing young man who really knocked me off my feet. It took me that one moment to realize how much I love Mateo and appreciate him. I fell in love for the first time with Mateo and the second with this boy, Afonso. He was handsome, smart, funny, caring, but I couldn't stay. He begged me, he loved me I knew he did. Yet I couldn't because I knew my heart belonged to Mateo. Everyone is different and maybe Marco may be the one for you, or you will be like me and end up with where your heart belongs. Either way, you'll know when you choose, you'll feel it like a ton of bricks.' She patted my head and walked to her room. I waited a few minutes before I head up and put away my bras and underwear so Asensio wouldn't be seeing that process.

    I stayed up all night over thinking what Luna told me. When will I know? Who will it be? It has to be Jesse right? But Asensio is so sweet though and he does like me right? I needed to sleep and fast before my thoughts consumed me.

    I woke up the next morning with the worst headache, so when I saw the text from Asensio I groaned.

Buenos días! I'll be over in an hour :) - Marco

    He sent this an hour ago. I jumped out of bed making my headache worse, and bolted to the bathroom before anyone could notice me. I did my routine and then ran back to my room and threw on sweats and a t shirt. I checked the mirror and decided to walk downstairs.

    'No no, she has a boyfriend Luna.' I heard him chuckle and I smiled that he respected that.

    'I know Marquinho, but I see the way you look at her.' She teased and I knew she was making him uncomfortable. I was about to walk in when he cleared his throat.
 
    'Yeah it's bad isn't it? I just don't want to get in the way of her and her boyfriend, I know she loves him. I was scared for like two months to follow her after seeing her on Marcus's page, but by the time I did she was already dating him. It's my fault I guess but she's happy.' He sighed and I felt my heart crack. What if he had tried earlier and I didn't end up with Jesse. How could the timing be so off? I felt my phone buzz in my pocket so I ran back upstairs to answer.

    'There's my beautiful girl.' Jesse's bright smile lit up my phone screen, making me feel warm inside.

    'Ah Ive missed your face so much.' I sighed and his laugh filled the room.

    'I've missed you more trust me. It's been less than two days and i'm seriously looking at flights.' He pouted and I wanted so badly just to kiss him.

    'How has everything been? How's Marcus?' I asked, genuinely curious as to how Marcus is doing.

    'He's good, I am officially staying in the guest room until you come back because he said he's lonely. Don't know how you're gonna move out in the future.' He chuckled and I laughed at Marcus's situation.
 
    'Has Lucia not been coming around?' I was hoping she would be because she was so fun to be around.

   'Yeah she came over the yesterday after you left and then this morning before training. Are you feeling okay?' He asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

   'Yeah of course, why wouldn't I be?' I laughed trying to play it off. He didn't even have a clue Asensio was in the kitchen. I didn't feel well lying to him and it made me sick.

    'I don't know. Anyways I just called to see you because I miss your beautiful face. Sorry I didn't answer you last night, I was packing some stuff for the guest room. I also had to console Marcus when he found the condom package in your room.' He smirked and I just rolled my eyes.

   'You are the worst! Why didn't you put those away?' I groaned. It's not that Marcus is against me doing those things but he gets so uncomfortable talking about it, we are practically siblings.

   'I forgot! Listen, you left me wanting more the morning you left, so to avoid making myself sad I didn't go in your room. Marcus needed one of his sweaters and he found it. Stop blaming me.' He said in defense making me chuckle.
  
    'Alright whatever loser.' I stuck my tongue out at him and he did the same.

    'I'm gonna go grab some food with Marcus, I'm going to call you tonight okay? I love you.' He smiled and dragged out the last three words in a lovey dicey voice making my stomach do flips.

   'I love you too idiot.' I blew a kiss and he kissed the camera, then he hung up. I decided I should really go downstairs to greet Marco because he had been waiting for some time now.