Die a lonely guy ♡ Weekman

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The next day💫
Dallon 🌙

I'm officially the worst person. The worst friend. How could I do that to Ryan? He's so fragile, to see that side of me- it's traumatising. I completely understand if he hates me, because I do too.

He sent me a letter. I could tell he got bored just from seeing a bunch of doodles. It's cute really. My heart felt warm when I saw a small picture of me & him. He's too cute.

I thought for sure our friendship would be over. I thought he'd try to remove me from his life & go be happy with Brendon. I've never been so glad to be wrong.

Deciding I shouldn't waste anymore time, I open the envelope & unfold the paper. I notice the tear stains first. His handwriting is very neat & there's no mistakes.

Dear Dally,
I want you to live.

I want you to want to live.

I won't feed you some bullshit like it's all going to be OK with time because it may not be, and it may not turn out as you wish, but you will never know if you don't stick around to find out.

I will instead tell you I am here with you. Let's take this a minute at a time.

I will remind you that although I don't know what tomorrow will bring, I will be by your side to find out.

You are so important.

I won't make you feel selfish by telling you to stick around for your family or friends, because I know you feel that leaving would not only end your burden, but theirs as well.

I will tell you someone loves you despite how you feel inside. I will remind you that you are not and never will be a burden. You may not see or even hear it, but someone out there values your life; I value your life. I do care because I can empathize with your pain; I feel it myself.

You are incredibly strong.

I won't ever tell you that you are being dramatic and don't really want to die.

I will instead be here to listen and validate your feelings because they are as significant as you are.

I am so proud of you for still staying with me.

I won't ever tell you things could be worse or that other people have it worse than you and don't want to die.

Dallon, you're my best friend, and I love you so much. Yesterday scared the hell out of me- but I'm not mad. I'm running out of room so i should end this note.
I love you,
Your best friend Ryan