Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 1: "holy shit there are a lot of girls here"

Hunter POV

 

Today was the day, today was the day that I was going to meet One Direction. I really don't like to put labels on myself, so I wouldn't

consider myself a Directioner, but secretly I think I was. It was only 10am, but I tend to wake up and just lay in bed for a while and check all

my social media accounts. The concert didn't start until 7pm, so I had the whole day to relax. Only with me it's not that simple, I suffer from general

anxiety disorder.

*text tone*

From: Raegan  

"I am SOOO excited for tonight! I know it's tonight, but wanna just meet up at my place and we'll hang out for the day? Maybe get your mind and

nerves at ease with some distractions? ahah"

She was seriously the best, she didn't always fully understand what I go through but it helps that she tries.

To: Raegan

"sounds good to me! It's early, so I'm just going to get ready and then I'll head on over!" I'm glad that we made plans so atleast Im not alone thinking about everything that's going to happen. It's not so much the boys that would freak me out

it's all the people. I just hate crowds.

I decide that it's probably a good idea to get out of bed and go shower. Is is weird that I hate showers? I know that most people probably enjoy them, but I tend to just get in, do everything and get out asap. So needless to say I was done in 15 minutes. I'm not one to take forever to get ready either. I guess you could say I was girly, but I like to spend as little time possible on all that stuff.

*11:05*

I got completely ready, besides my hair. I hardly ever do my hair most of the time it ends up in a messy bun, so I tend to just let it air dry. I figure even though it's still only early, I could head over to Raegan's. I practically live at her house so it didn't really matter if she was ready or not. I get in my car and head over. But first I stop at Tim Hortons and get us some Iced Capps and bagels.

"hellooooooooo" I say walking in her front door, taking my shoes off and walking up the stairs to the living room.

"here you goooo" I say as I hand her, her drink and food. Her face lit up brighter than the sun when she saw what I had brought for her. We have a tim hortons addiction, but what Canadian doesn't? As I presumed she wasn't ready. But that's kind of how we worked what's the point of getting fully ready first thing In the morning, If you're just going to be sitting around the house for a few hours? maybe we're just weird.

"so what have you been up to?" I ask her.

"absolutely nothing, I was was just trying to find something to watch on netflix"

"sounds good to meee!" I'd say that's a very talented skill we have, we could watch netflix for hours and hours and hours on end. I would say that it's almost on unhealthy, but we're not the partying going to bars kind of 18 year olds, so we just watch movies instead.

Time is passing by, by us occupying our time with video games and movies. Before we knew it, it was time to head off to the arena, we had to be there a little earlier because we had vip tickets so we had early admission and the meet and greet.

"have the tickets hunter?!" she yells out to me from the bathroom where she was finishing getting ready.

"yep! make sure you have everything you need! camera and whatever!" We get into my car and head off, but not before putting on some One Direction, obviously. So far is so good, we're not at the venue yet but surprisingly my nerves and anxiety is pretty minimal, the only thing thats worrying me at this point is parking. that is going to be a disaster.

*30 minutes later*

"holy shit there are a lot of girls here" quietly saying to Raegan.

"I've never seen so many"

It's literally a sea of girls and it's only 4:00pm, so it's not even close to time to being let it, so i'm not sure if these all the meet and greet girls or they're waiting for the boys to arrive. I'm really hoping it's the latter, I couldn't deal with all these girls around me waiting to meet the boys.

*4:30*

"ATTENTION. Everyone with the meet and greet ticket and wristband will be let it right now. You will be let it and then more instructions will be gone over in the holding area when all meet and greets have made it into the venue" yells a man in a security uniform.

I secretly start to freak out, that's the other thing embarrassment goes hand in hand with anxiety so I will do everything possible to avoid embarrassment. So I've actually never vocalize my panic attacks I mostly just go away from everything and deal with it. So right now I'm just trying to make myself seem calm and cool, but we all know I probably look like a deer in headlights.

*5:00*

"OKAY. here's what's going to happen-" the same mans yells telling us what's going to happen and then runs through the do's and don'ts. For about a few seconds I thought it was a big joke because of how many girls and people there were in this line that made it through the for meet and greet. All I could hear around me was chatter about what they were going to say or how they were going to pose. We decided to join into the conversation.

"So how do you want to pose and what are we going to say?! holy fuck" Raegan asks becoming more and more excited

"I think we should just pose normally. ahah I find it awkward trying to sort out how to pose, know what I mean? and I'm anxious as it is. ahaha"

"true"

oh my god oh my god oh my god. we're next.