CLUMSY

Part 22: Clumsy!!

Part 22:CLUMSY!!

''but u have killed a bastard!...and thats definitely not a sin!..he deserved that!'' he cupped her face....

''haan Randhir..main jaanti hun..par uss waqt main bachchi thi,chhoti si bachchi!..mere dimag par kya asar hua tha usse maarne ke baad..tum nahi samajh paoge!....usi vajah se main itni kamzor ho gayi ki aaj tak main aaine mein apne aapse aankhein nahi mila paati!..kisi se khul kar baat nahi kar paati..apne aap ko itna hard aur emotionless bana liya hai maine taaki koi mujhe dekhna bhi pasand na kare..pathhar ho gayi hun main..kisi chheez ka asar nahi hota ab mujhpe!'' she chipped bluntly....

''tum kyun khud ko sazaa de rahi ho....tumne kuch galat nahi kiya Sanyukta!....infact tum toh example ho sab ke liye!..tum apni zindagi theek se jee pa rahi itna sab kuch hone ke baad, yeh kya kam hai..'' he tried to convince her....

''aisi zindagi mujhe kabhi nahi chahiye thi...par phir bhi maine apne sapnon ko jeene ka mauka diya..apni padhai continue ki..scholarship toh milti hi thi mujhe!..hostel expenses bhi milte thhe!...mujhe iss baat ki khushi thi ki main apni zindagi mein aage badh paa rahi hun....'' she sobbed but a proud smile was capturing her face simultaneously.....

''aur ab...ab kaise manage karti ho tum!...i mean tum college ki fees aur baaki expenses kahan se laati ho!...aur moreover drugs kaise kharid paati ho!'' he enquired....

''sabke saath tumhe bhi jaanna hai na ki main kya kaam karti hun...maine kisi ko kabhi nahi bataya par tumse maine kuch nahi chhupaya toh tumhe yeh sach bhi bata deti hun!...hacker hun main..professional hacker...bade bade assignments milte hain mujhe hacking ke!...padhai ke saath maine hacking bhi seekhi thi!..bahut paise mil jaate hain mujhe!...'' she confessed...

''toh tumne aaj tak kisiko bataya kyun nahi..khamakha sabki cheap aur disgusting baatein kyun sunti thi!'' he caressed her face....

''mujhe koi fark hi nahi padta....main umar se pehle hi itni blunt aur mature ho chuki hun ki logon ki cheap baatein mujhe bachkaani lagti hain!..'' she chuckled annoyedly....

''Sanyukta tumne kya haalat karli hai apni....aisa lagta hai jaise tum jeena hi bhool gayi ho!..sirf saansein lena jeena nahi hota,for god's sake!...'' he quibbled...

''zinda hun na..bas thats enough for me...pata hai woh aadmi marne se pehle mujhe 2 cheezein dekar gaya,ek toh umar bhar ka dard aur dusri yeh drugs ki aadat!...par maine bhi iss aadat ko chhodne ki koshish nahi ki!..kyunki inhi ki vajah se, bhale hi kuch der ke liye, main puri duniya ko bhool jaati hun!...bahut sukoon milta hai inhe apne andar jagah dekar!..sirf yahi hain jin par main bharosa kar sakti hun,insaanon par se toh bharosa bachpan mein hi uth gaya tha!...drugs lekar main apne saare dard bhool jaati hun!'' she sat on the floor and was about to sniff her drug again...

TO BE CONTINUED