A/N: This story is about to start having SO MANY Song references just so you know<3 (sometimes, throughout chapters, he'll repeat the same quotes but that's because they are super inspirational/deep things)
JOSH'S POV:
Tyler and I actually ended up falling asleep on the roof that night. It's been about a week and we've hung out every day since. I found out a lot about Tyler. One pretty big thing I found out was this, he needs help. We have a couple days until school starts. I grabbed my mom's credit card and went out with Tyler and his mom to go school shopping. My mom didn't really want to take me. So I just went with them.
We got to target and went through they aisles, Tyler and I making jokes to each other. Unless we were saying something really odd, we'd say it in sign language since I learned a LOT of sign language.
We had already toured the school since we were both new. The school is a 10-12 grade (usually it is 9-12 but for the sake of the story).
As were we going to pay, Tyler's mom tried to pay for my stuff
"Come on, it's fine, really" she said
"No, I have money. It's fine" I said
"No, I don't think so" she said
"I'm gonna pay for my stuff, and you can pay for Tyler's stuff."
"fine" she said, finally caving in.
I payed for my stuff which ended up being about $100
"are you happy for school?" I asked, not knowing the word for 'excited'
"No" he said
"Why?" I asked
"I'm deaf. They're hearing"
"I'll save you. And you're going to be hearing later" I said. We spoke in simple words like these since I didn't know 'protect' or 'in a couple weeks'
"my savior. But I don't want to get bullied" he said
"I'll beat them up" I said, making his mom laugh
"Thanks" he said
"You're welcome" I said
*time lapse to school*
Tomorrow is the first day of school. Tyler is getting the Cochlear implant in about 3 weeks.
His mom didn't want us to sleep over because, well, we had school tomorrow even thought we were gonna text because like, we are awake anyway, whether in the same room or not.
Tyjo: I'm really nervous
Jishwa: why?
Tyjo: I got made fun of at middle school, I'm going to get made fun of in High School
Jishwa: I was serious when I said I'd beat them up, ya know
Tyjo: lol thanks, Jishwa
Jishwa: Anytime, Tyjo
Tyjo: You know how I said I haven't been feeling good?
Jishwa: yeah
Tyjo: I told my mom. She thinks it's nervousness. We will ask the doctors but she's probably right, I am really nervous
Jishwa: same
Tyjo: why are you nervous?
Jishwa: I HAVE to pass
Tyjo: why
Jishwa: my mom
Tyjo: she doesn't even care about you, why does she want you to pass so bad?
Jishwa: so I can get a scholarship and move out without her help
Tyjo: Gonna be honest, I kinda hate your mom
Jishwa: so do I
Tyjo: are you still thinking about hurting yourself?
Jishwa: those thoughts aren't gonna leave anytime soon
Tyjo: I get that
Jishwa: don't hurt yourself
Tyjo: you either.
Jishwa: I won't. But I'm gonna dye my hair.
Tyjo: then it won't be Green!
Jishwa: green is my least favorite color it's ever been
Tyjo: I like it
Jishwa: you haven't compared it to my other colors.
Tyjo: fair
Jishwa: I'll text you when I'm done.
Tyjo: and I'll respond when you're done.
*about an hour and a half later*
Jishwa: what do you think?? Better than green, am I right?
(A/N: WATTPAD IS BEING STUPID AF AND WON'T LET ME PUT ANY PICTURES HERE SO PICTURE ABOVE INSTEAD OF A REMINDER TO STAY ALIVE BUT STILL STAY ALIVE, OKAY)
Tyjo: lookin fine. And yes, better than green hair
Jishwa: told you
Tyjo: Uh, Josh?
Jishwa: what's up?
Tyjo: I REALLY don't feel good. Worse than ever. I'm VERY sure it's nerves because I'm now feeling at my worst a couple hours before school. I threw up, even
Jishwa: Yeah, I'm feelin nerves too. I haven't been feeling them for the last 2 weeks but I've been feeling them
Tyjo: you think we'll make it?
Jishwa: like, make it out alive?
Tyjo: Yeah, like, make it out alive
Jishwa: I'm confident in it. I'm like, decent sized
Tyjo: I'm small
Jishwa: ah but you have me, your guardian angel
Tyjo: how could I forget?
Jishwa: yes, how could you
Tyjo: lmao, thanks Josh
Jishwa: yw Tyler
Tyjo: I'm writing a song. These are the lyrics
There's an infestation in my mind's imagination
I hope they choke on smoke cause I'm smokin em out the basement
This is not rap, this is not hip hop
Just another attempt to make the voices stop
rappin to prove nothing
Just writing so say something
Cause I wasn't the only one who was rushin to say nothing
This doesn't, mean I lost my dream
It's just right now I got a really crazy mind to clean
ya know what I mean?
No, I didn't understand a thing you said
If I didn't know better I'd guess you're all already dead
mindless zombies walking around with a limp and hunch
saying things like "you only live once"
yea once,
you got one time to figure it out
one time to twist and one time to shout
One time to think and I'd say we start now
because death inspires me like a dog
inspires a rabbit
(A/N: I know this is a little different than the song but watch the video above)
Jishwa: I like it, when will I hear you sing it
Tyjo: I don't know
Jishwa: well one day, right?
Tyjo: one day
Jishwa: I look forward to that day
Tyjo: So Do I
Jishwa: I'm gonna get ready for school, it's like 5:30am. Plus I'm gonna come pick you up and go to your bus stop so the bus get's there in like, an hour. I know I have time but what am I gonna do, sleep for twenty minutes?
Tyjo: yeah, I'm gonna get ready too
Jishwa: my eyes are tired
Tyjo: same
I got ready and then grabbed an apple and ran to Tyler's house.
"Josh! Nice to see you, come in, come in, Tyler's eating some fruit if you want any" she said
I held up my apple
"Thanks, though. Is Tyler still nervous?" I asked
"Yes, are you?" she asked
"Very"
A/N: WOW, HOW BAD IS THIS LMAO! I'VE BEEN REALLY DISTRACTED AND WORKING ON THE SAME CHAPTER FOR LITERAL DAYS. IT'S OKAY THOUGH, BECAUSE IT'S OUT NOW. I WANNA WARN YOU, I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO FINISH THIS STORY! LIKE, I KNOW HOW IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN SO THERE'LL PROBABLY BE ABOUT 20 CHAPTERS, SORRY! BUT AT LEAST I'M NOT LEAVING THE SITE ALL TOGETHER, LET ALONE LEAVING MY STORIES UNFINISHED! For all my other stories, I don't know what's going to happen with them. I've known this one since like, chapter 3.
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FanfictionTyler Joseph went deaf due to a medical mistake when he was eight years old. Because of this, he learned to talk and sing before he went deaf He had fallen in love with music at a young age but now that he's deaf, the only thing he can hear is Blur...
