Helplessly in Love ~ Girl X Girl

Chapter 1

The moment I realized I fell in love with the black haired, blue eyed, tall, Korean girl was when she posted her artwork for pride month.

She drew the rainbow flag and captioned the pic with the words "Happy pride to everyone! I may be straight, but I still support everyone who is not!"

That hurt me very much deep inside. At that moment I accepted that I wasn't straight. I knew it all the time but I didn't accept it until that moment.

I am bisexual. Nobody knows that about me, I didn't even tell Jimin.

The next day in school I acted like everything was normal, but she immediately recognized that something has happened.

Although I saw it in her eyes I ignored it the whole day and went out of class as soon as the bell rang. She hurried after me, but I was faster.

I ran into the next building which was our school's library. There I hid behind a shelf and let the tears stream down my cheeks.

I cannot tell you how long I sat there, but it must have been quite long. After I calmed down a bit I took out my out my phone and turned it on.

Looking down at it I saw that my mother had already phoned me three times. I called her back, told her that I went to the library and forgot about the time.

As soon as I hung up I went to my bike, opened the padlock and rode it home. When I opened the door already heard my mother saying that Jimin had called and I should call her back.

Although I nodded I knew I wouldn't do it. I couldn't face her anymore since I knew how I feel about her.

Because my mother wanted me to I ate lunch with her, but in the moment I finished I stud up, brought my plate into the kitchen and went into my room.

I closed the door and laid down onto my bed. There I started to cry again. At some point I must have fallen asleep, because I woke up from someone rubbing my back.

The person was Jimin. She was the last person I wanted to see. Immediately I turned around to face the wall.

'Please just go away', I thought. We stayed in that position for a while, but then she left. I said goodbye while I was still not facing her.

When my mother called me for dinner, my response was that I was not hungry at all. So she let me stay in my room.

That's when I started to cry again. I know I'm very sentimental, but I didn't care. At the moment crying was the only thing I felt like doing.

So I cried myself to sleep. The next morning I told my mom I felt sick so she would let me stay at home.

And of course she did. She was worried, because she had to go to work and leave me at home, but I told her that I would be ok.

The day afterwards I went to school again. There I had to face my crush again. I told her that I was just sick and there was nothing else.

My fake smile managed to convince everyone, but her, she still didn't believe me. But she realized that I didn't want to talk about it and so she let me.

Of course I knew I would not be able to hide my feelings for her forever, but hopefully long enough so my feelings would fade.

I kept the act of the best friend upright, but I isolated myself every day a bit more. At first I only sat in a corner reading alone during the short breaks, but a week later I did the same things in the long breaks, too.

After another two weeks I even took a different table for the lunch break when we had school in the afternoon, too. She looks like she suffered every time a took a step away from her.

I hate seeing her suffer like that, but I thought she would suffer more with me by her side. Her parents even invited me to the traditional wedding of Jimin's sister, but as a typical European Girl I didn't know what I had to expect and I didn't want to se her, so I turned the invitation down.

The next thing I heard from her was when her parents called after the wedding. I tried calling them before to congratulate Sunmi to her wedding, but I wasn't able to reach anybody.

I took the call without hesitation, but I didn't know it would change everything. The first song I heard was someone sobbing.

"Hello?", I said questioning. "It..it's about Jimin. Y-you might wanna know", I heard her mother saying.

"What is it?" Now I was definitely concerned about what is going on.

"I'm so sorry", came it through the speakers of my phone. "Just tell me, please", I begged her.

Then she told me. "Sofia, Jimin is in hospital", she told me under tears.

Just seconds later the phone hit the floor. I was completely shocked. Never I felt so afraid and sad before.

~ authors note ~
I'm sorry for this cliffhanger, but I want things to be interesting for you. Hopefully you enjoyed reading this chapter. If you did please consider giving it a vote or leaving a comment.

Q: What do you think happened to Jimin?