Helplessly in Love ~ Girl X Girl

Chapter 6

There were photos of me kissing Angel and there was even one were I was kissing Xiumin.

How the hell where this photos made? I was in a private room with angel and with Xiumin I was standing in the kitchen at Jimin's. There is no way someone could have taken those pics, is there?

"Jimin, I can ex-" - "No you can not! You could have told me before about your sexuality, you know exactly that I support the lgbt+ community, but you still decided to keep it secret. Until a certain point I get that. But kissing my brother?! Don't you dare even coming close to him again! Don't talk to me in the next time as well!"

Then she hung up and my heart completely fell apart. Never in my whole live have I ever felt such pain. I cried the rest of the day and the night until I had no more tears left.

Why have I been so stupid? Why did I do this? And why Xiumin? I went on Instagram to ask everyone to delete the photos, which will probably no one do, but I could ask for it. And maybe I would find out that way, who even took the pictures.

Surprisingly some people even did take the photos down, but other started to share some of Jimin and me kissing because of the 'Truth or Dare'-game. Those where all with #Jimia or #JimiaIsReal.

It hurt even more seeing those because I knew it was only a one-sided love and it would really hurt Jimin seeing them. But I couldn't stop them from spreading them and that's what made angriest.

The next day in school was horror pure for me. Literally every single person in the whole school stared at me and I could hear them whispering about that I'm gay.

Gosh, the hade no idea that bi as what I am and not gay! There is a huge difference there. The photos of Xiumin and me should have proved that, but everyone thought I only did it to distract from my true sexuality.

As soon as the bell rung I ran out of the classroom and just went home, where I locked myself up in my room. I couldn't hear all those comments anymore. Some where truly sweet, asking why I didn't come out earlier by myself, but most of them really hateful and hurt me really badly.

Jimin kept her word and didn't talked to my at all nor did I try to talk to her. I felt bad for her, she didn't do anything and this is all because of me.

Honestly I felt like the most disgusting person on earth, because Jimin has to face all this hate, too. I broke the promise I made to myself that I wouldn't let anybody hurt her.

After a few days even the teachers recognized that something was wrong, but I managed to convince them that it wasn't dramatic and I could handle it by myself. Normally I wouldn't lie to my teachers, but I knew the couldn't help me anyways.

But a week later something happened, which I didn't expect at all. During a break Jimin took my hand and went with me into an empty classroom. "You know everything they say about us, don't you? I just wanted to say that they aren't completely wrong about me ether, I'm pansexual. Still it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to talk with you, because what you did with my big brother."

A bit confused I was left behind in the classroom, where I remained until the next lesson still thinking about what Jimin had just told me. Maybe I will get my chance to tell her how I truly fell someday?

Back home I was still smiling a bit and on the inside I was happier than ever. Might destiny maybe don't be so bad with me in the end? Someday I will probably find it out.

The rest of the month passed with fast pace and thankfully the school found new gossip to talk about instead of what they called Jimia. For that I was very thankful.

One day suddenly I received a call from a number I didn't had in my contacts, but still I took it and immediately recognized the voice on the phone. It was Xiumin. "Please talk to my sister again, she has been so down since you stopped talking. By the way can someone of you have the grace to tell me what actually happened?"

I sighed and started to explain everything. Nothing was left out not even the smallest detail.

"You girls can be really complicated, you know that? I'll try and talk to her about the kiss we shared, maybe that will help." We both said goodbye and then I ended the call. I let myself fall down onto my bed and opened Instagram for the first time in a while.

Suddenly a new post from Xiumin appeared on my feed and curious as I am I click on it. He captured a pic of Jimin, him and me with an explanation about our kiss. He defended me in any possible way even lied about that he mad a move on me and not the other way around.

It was so sweet I teared up. I know he did it to protect Jimin and me and because he wasn't in our school he wouldn't have to handle all the hate so it didn't matter to him what he said about this, but it meant so much to me.

Just a few minutes later my phone rang again. This time it was a number I know with thinking about it. Scared I took the call anyway.