Helplessly in Love ~ Girl X Girl

Chapter 8

Even on the next day I could forget Jimin's words. "Saranghae Sofia", she whispered the night before. (Saranghae means I love you in Korean in case you didn't know)

This phrase was one of the few I know, Jimin had learned it to me shortly before I found out I had a crush on her. Smiling I sunk into the memories of that day.

"Why do you smile so brightly? I haven't seen you doing that in a while." - "It's nothing, I just remembered something."

In her eyes I could see that she wasn't fully satisfied, but she didn't ask further. She got up, went to my closet and took a hoodie and some sweatpants out. Then she went into the bathroom and changed into those clothes.

The whole day we spent eating ice cream, dancing to our favorite songs and painting our nails. Basically doing girly best friend stuff.

At 7 pm she went home still wearing my clothes, but that didn't matter to me, I would probably get them back soon. I loved every second I spent with Jimin that day and my crush on her only grew stronger, however I couldn't allow myself to think so about her.

She would never love me the same as I love her, but the words I heard last night let me question my own thoughts.

That night I laid awake in my bed again. I could still smell Jimin's scent on the sheets, which wasn't exactly helping me to fall asleep.

In the end I binge watch my favorite TV show again. It's not like I have had already watched it like seven times, but it is still so good.

Finishing the last episode I grabbed my pen and poetry book again trying to come up with some ideas. This time it surprisingly worked pretty good. The pen in my hand looking out of the window watching the moon I got the perfect setup and started to versify. Within seconds the first two lines were written down.

I can't close my eyes because of you
am I the reason you can't sleep, too?

The poem turned out quite nicely(if anyone is interested in the full version you can check it out in my book 'Poems'. It's called falling in love) and I was smiling happily when I fell asleep with my head laid down onto the page I have had just written on.

The next day was Sunday. The most boring day of the week because there was literally nothing to do. No shops are open and everyone wants to spent their time with their families. Normally I would do the same, but yesterday morning my dad went of on one of his business trips again and my mother visited some far related people. She had asked me if I would have liked to come with her, but I denied.

So I spent another day alone at home. To be honest being alone wasn't that bad for me, because I didn't have to hide my feelings and no one asked questions. The whole day I basically spent eating crisps in front of the TV while watching YouTube only interrupted for I short time when I did my work for school and made myself something to eat.

In the evening I ordered a pizza and then I went to sleep very exhausted although I hadn't done much. Maybe it was because of the lack of sleep I got the last few weeks. Probably.

The next day I went to school as normal, but quickly I realized something was different. Everyone was talking and shaking heads, some were even crying. The Jimin walked over to me.

"Have you heard it already?" - "No, what happened?" - "Matthew moved, but left a letter to all the pupils here at school saying that he made all the photos and even apologizing for doing so, can you believe that?"

I shook my head. Literally everything I had expected, but definitely not that. The rest of the school day went by quickly, but at home I had a lot to do because my exams started next week with Latin. Oh gosh, Latin was literally the only subject I fully hearted hated, but it was a main subject at our school.

I don't know how, but I wasn't so bad at it. However I still had to study a lot harder for it than for any other subject. Deeply in my thoughts I got a call from Jimin, which I answered quickly: "Hey Sofia, do you get the new grammar chapter?" - "Not perfectly, but fine, why?" - "Can we study together, I didn't get at all what the teacher tried to explain?"

I wanted to say no because I already spent so much time with her and every second with her let me fall even more for that beautiful girl. Not that I haven't loved her enough already for a one sided love.

Still I agreed because there was nothing I wouldn't do fo the person I loved. Jimin immediately came over and we started our studying session.

After four hours of fully concentrated studying Jimin started trying to distract me. She threw her pen at me and stole my book. It ended in a huge laugh flash.

Then my mom called for dinner which we had together at my place. When we were finished Jimin jumped up saying that she had forgotten something and ran to the coat check, where she had left her bag.

She came back just minutes later handing me the clothes she had borrowed on Saturday. "I didn't have the time to wash them, I hope you don't mind", she added. Then she hugged me goodbye and went home.

That night I sleep deep and dreamless again.