Why Am I Here

I'm worried 9

Trigger warning
Self harm
Not want to eat
Suicide
AND sad 😭

Roman P.O.V
Me,Virgil and Patton are playing twister one of Patton favorite games. As we're in the middle of the game we were in some very awkward positions. Logan was spinning the spinner and told us what we had to do. Me,Virgil and patton weren't really talking but giggling the whole time. Logan said it right foot green for Virgil.Virgil couldn't do it and ended up falling on top of me and then Patton fall as well. We we're all tired by the end of that game, we ended up playing 8 rounds. So we were all pretty tired. Pat said he was going up to his room to watch some SpongeBob. I asked Virgil if you want to go watch some Disney movies in my room, and he said sure. Virgil looked so cute .

Anything in italics is in Romans head

Depression- Really you're going for anxiety wow you are desperate.

Roman- Oh great your back.

Depression- yes I am.

Virgil - do you want popcorn

Depression- say no I mean you already fat enough. Do you want to get bigger.

No thanks Virgil

Depression- now why Virgil gone, go to the bathroom you know what is waiting for you

Roman saw the shine of a Razer Blade. From the darkness

Roman- hell no not again. I have been clean for a year now no happening ever again.

Depression- what ever old friend.

Roman- your not my friend.

Virgil-ok I got some popcorn. What are we going to watch.

Roman- Finding Nemo

Virgil -ok one of my favorites!

1 hours and 40 minutes past and Virgil had fallen asleep.

Roman P.O.V
Virgil had fallen asleep so I picked him up and carried him back to his room, and put him on his bed. I closed the door a left. He was thinking about Virgil and how he seem to be happier and getting better.
I want back to my room to get ready for bed. I put on my PJ and was going to go get a snack like I always do but decided not to night. I put on my blue jacket. And when to get a water of the kitchen. I saw Patton standing in the kitchen eating some cookies.

Patton- hey Roman

Roman- hi Patton

Patton- what did you eat for a snack tonight

Roman- I didn't have a snack tonight

Patton- Oh ok

Roman-well I'm going to bed night Patton.

Patton- night don't let the bedbugs bite.

Roman-....

2 days later

Patton-hey Roman what you you want for Dinner?

Roman-in not hungry right now.

Patton- come on you got to eat.

Roman- I'll eat when I'm hungry ok.

Patton-fine.

Patton knockedon Virgil door

Patton- hey Virgil what do you want for Dinner?

Virgil-...

Patton- Virgil?

Virgil- nothing

Patton- Virgil are you ok?

Virgil- YES I'm preferly fine.

Patton- Virgil please

Virgil- please go away I'm not hungry .

Patton P.O.V
I'm worried about Roman he always eat,and his in his room more then usual. He hasn't acted like this since Depression was here. He would skip meals all the time,and started selfharm Roman was affected the most by depression when he was here. But depression hasn't been here in 4 year. So I don't know what going on with him . And Virgil hasn't come out of his room in 2 days.he's starting to worry me every sense Virgil suicide attempt Roman has been help him but Virgil not come out of his room in two days scares me. He was getting better but now he's getting bad again,and that scares me I don't want to lose him. I'm so worried about Roman and Virgil.

Virgil P.O.V 2 days ago
I woke up my room gosh I hate me room. I could tell I wasn't going to have a good day I was so tried I didn't want to get out of bed. I feel disgusting I went to my bathroom to take a shower, I look down at my arm. The blade was right by me I grabbed it and made 4 cut on each arm. And told a shower, after I was done I cut stopped bleeding so I got dressed and went back to sleep.

And the same thing happenedthe next day

Present day
Virgil P.O.V
I had done the same thing as I had done the last 2 days. Today was a little different though Patton have come and ask me what I wanted for dinner. I didn't answer him. He said Virgil are you ok? And I said I'm perfectly fine, I was mad but I didn't know why,I felt bad after saying that though. I'm a horrible person.

Hey hope you like the chapter. Thanks to all you who are reading this. Please leave a comment telling me you liked it. And it will get happier soon and Thanks you guy for reading this and sorry for spelling mistake grammar errors in punctuation errors. And do not do what Roman or what Virgil are doing it is so unhealthy and if you are please get help please you are all beautiful and perfect humans ❤💙💛💜🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤