Carry On

14

My chest was pounding has I darted away from Bobby's house. Since coming back from Hell, I've been stronger and faster and that let me know that no one was going to catch up to me. I finally stopped when I was at the top of the hill of my own little paradise. I looked down from the hill, seeing the water coast in and out, and I felt the tears brimming my eyes.

"God I missed you." I said to myself has I kicked off my combat boots and darted down the hill.

I was able to imagine a lot to try and forget about the torture, but the one thing I couldn't recreate in my mind was the feeling of the water washing over my feet. Has I was able to reconnect with the water, the tears just started to pour down from my face. I fell down to my knees and let the water wash over my hands, occasionally splashing up and hitting my face but I didn't care.

"Ada?" Dean called and I quickly stood up, facing away from him and trying to wipe the tears from my face.

"I'm fine, just needed a minute." I said.

"Coming back from hell requires a little more then a minute." Dean said has he walked into the water and stood next to me.

"Maybe for a wuss like you, but I'm fine." I said, trying to lighten the mood a little.

"You've said fine so many times it doesn't even sound like a word anymore. You aren't fine Adeline, you've been to hell and back and no matter who you are, you don't come back fine." Dean said.

"It's been nine months and I still don't have my sea legs yet. I still feel like I'm going back at any second. I couldn't come back to you and the kids like that, with all this crazy flying around in my head. I wanted to come back Dean, but between you guys being in the normal life and me off the rails I just couldn't." I admitted has I faced him.

"You're supposed to lean on family Ada, that's what we're here for." Dean said has he put his arm around my shoulders.

I leaned my head against him and we stared out over the water, feeling the cool water wash over my feet. "I tried to recreate this place down in the pit, but it never came close to this." I said and then the rest of the family started coming down the hill.

"Mommy!" I heard the babies cry and I turned around.

"Hi munchkins." I smiled has I held my hands out.

Jo and Ellen crouched down and held them up under their arms.

"Go walk to Mommy and Daddy." Ellen said has Dean walked up next to me.

Dean and I crouched down and they were both grinning ear to ear. Jo and Ellen slowly lifted their hold and both the kids started walking towards us. The tears were brimming my eyes has Aella walked to me and Wyatt walked to Dean, and they both made it to us. I lifted Aella into my arms and held her tight, has Dean did the same.

"My babies are walking I can't believe it!" I cried and kissed the top of her head.

I faced the water again and I saw Aella study the water, then look up to me. She slowly lifted her hand up to my face. The minute she made contact, a memory played over my eyes and I was seeing everything through Aella's eyes. She was sitting in Dean's lap and everyone was sharing memories about me, while Dean was also talking about what a special place this was. Aella pulled her hand away from my face and I was back to looking down at her.

"Aella just showed me a memory of hers." I said has I looked at her beautiful smiling face.

"What did she show you?" Bobby asked.

"You all were sitting here sharing memories of me." I said looking at them.

"That was the night you died and we brought them here." Sam said.