11:50pm UK time
19th Thursday July 2018
Im sorry im such a massive fuck up
I know i have problems so i will just leave and make your life better, it makes other people happy, so it should make you happy, no one wants me here, no one likes me, i am ugly and a fucking failure and a waist of time, i deserve everything bad, i am a waist of space and i should just be hit by a bus and hopefully it will end up killing my useless ass
The voices don't listen to my pleas to stop they just keep torturing me until i break, i have given up trying that have broke me, i give up, they have won, im weak, they are so much stronger and very powerful how the fuck can i beat them i can't.
Don't bother trying to talk me out of it, i cant deal with it anymore, no one cares, my mother isn't feeding me, and she takes my food away if i buy it and im not allowed to touch it until the next day after 12pm
I really do give up, i give up with life, i give up trying, i am broken, and i cannot be fixed, im ugly, disgusting, horrible, putrid, useless, worthless and so much fucking more i am the definition of ugly and i just want to end it all, all of these friendships seem to be forced like they have think they have to be "friends" with me like if you dont like me its okay, i understand, ik im a waist of time so just leave if you want im a waist, one person whom i talked to everyday hasn't text me if a really long time i hope she is alright, i hope she i she is happier than me, i really dont know what gonna happen tonight so if i end up ending my stupid life, don't be surprised, tell my gorgeous girlfriend i adore her and i hope she finds someone whom can help her with problems and will be better than me (its quite easy to be better than me, im just a mistake).
Goodbye
~ Astrid xoxo
