one kiss // e.d

tragedy

friday, august 24th

it's been three days since me and wes had our date and he told me he loved me. school started in two days and i didn't even care. i walked around my kitchen, running my hands along the counters, deciding what to do. i felt my phone buzz in my pocket and i picked it out. grayson was calling me.

g- "you need to come over ASAP"
s- "what? why?"
g- "just please hurry"

before i could answer, grayson hung up. i sighed and left my house to walk across the street. before i could even reach the door, it swung open, revealing a stressed grayson. as i picked up speed to reach him, he grabbed my elbow, lightly, to pull me in. he shut the door and sighed, rubbing his face.

"okay, what the fuck?" i regained my balance from the sudden force upon me.

"shh!" he whisper yelled.

"jeez okay!" i put my hands up in defense.

"sorry, i'm just fucking stressing out." he apologized. "amber broke up with ethan."

"what?" i stuttered.

"she said that she didn't trust him with.." he trailed off.

"go on?" i motioned my hands for him to continue. he put his hand in his hip and ran a hand through his messy hair.

"she didn't trust him around you." my face heated as guilt ran through my body. i don't know why guilt came to me though.

"with me?" he nodded. "why?" i really didn't see why i was a threat to her, me and ethan are friends, have been since birth. nothing more.

"i don't fucking know. she came over here with a box of his sweaters and hoodies she had borrowed and left. she didn't even seem upset. now he won't leave his room and won't talk to anyone." i rubbed my arm and looked around. i noticed a couple pictures of me and the boys as kids on the shelves and tables. well i can understand why she was scared now, i guess.

"i should probably talk to her." i said unenthusiastically. talking amber into dating ethan again didn't seem very appealing to me but, i'd do anything for my boys.

"no, i called you here because ethan wanted to talk to you. he won't listen to anyone else." this shocked me. i was kind of the reason they broke up, but he only wants to see me. i nodded and made my way up the stairs to ethan's room. i knocked and called for him. i heard blankets shuffling and footsteps. then the door opened revealing a groggy, heartbroken ethan.

"oh eth." i sighed and hugged him. he grabbed me tightly and breathed heavily as we embraced. "wanna talk?" he nodded and took my hand leading me inside. he closed the door as i took a seat on the end of his bed. his room was fairly clean, except for the obvious anger explosion against his desk and it's inhabitants. pencils were broken and papers were all over the floor.

"i don't know what to fucking do syd." he took a seat next to me and laid on his back.

"i'm sorry." i gently said.

"i just don't understand why she did it!" he shot up off the bed so fast it made me jump.

"she was worried." i quivered.

"worried about what? your like my sister, there's nothing romantic here!" he fumed. my heart jumped at the sudden noise. then my body went limp at his words. i just didn't know why.

"yeah, but we always hang out. maybe that's why." i offered. he stood with his hands in his desk, leaning over it huffing at the situation. i didn't know what to say so i sat there, awaiting his response. he grabbed a pencil holder and chucked it at his wall. i slightly yelled at the action and his body whirled around. his eyes darted to me in, worry?

"shit i'm sorry, i don't know why i'm taking this out on you. this obviously isn't your fault, i'm just upset." he sat next to me. i rubbed his back. we sat in silence till an idea popped in my head.

"there's a party next week, to mark the first week of school, you should go and show amber up, that we're not together because we're friends. i don't know how it will go but, if you want her back you need to try." he nodded at my words and thanked me. i stood up to go but he grabbed my hand.

"thank you, syd. i can always count on you. you're such a good friend." he stood to hug me. as we embraced my body went cold. as i walked out to leave, my mind recounted his words. friend. even though i didn't like ethan, and i had a boyfriend, it still hurt me. to be completely honest, i didn't know why. i guess i just wanted to be more to him after all these years. but i didn't know how.

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sorry for the short chapter i just had some writers block for this one.