College player⛓Ethan Dolan

Chapter 11

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I wasn't really wanting to take anyone's shit today and asking me if I'm alright

Yeah I get their trying to see if I'm ok but I don't need help. Never needed help. I've learned that I can do things on my own

I get up and throw some shorts on

I'm gonna ditch school today and go to my parents grave but I'll be at volleyball practice

I grab my slides and walk downstairs and make sure to leave a note before walking out the door to my car and getting in

I turn it on and drive off to the store

Parking then getting out and walking in grabbing my moms favorite flowers which is tulips and my dad some orange roses since that was his favorite color

I pay for them and walk back out to my car then driving off to the cemetery (Ik they died in jersey but pretend that their in Cali)

I get out and grab the flowers walking far back in the cemetery until I see their tombstone

I plop down in front of it setting down the flowers on both of the sides for them

Staring at their graves made me cry

"I'm so sorry this happened to you guys I wish I was there"I said blaming myself

"I wish that you guys where still here I wish mom could make her famous spaghetti I wish we could have our movie nights like we used to"I said tearing up

"I miss you guys so much"I said wiping my tears

"8 years"I said in disbelief

"8 of birthdays and holidays missed and I just want you here whenever I'm hurt or when I'm getting married and whenever I'm pregnant I want you guys to be grandparents but now it's all gone"I said just reading the words on their tombstones

Here lies Hunter and Jocelyn Lovelace parents, a son, a daughter

I curse under my breath and scratch my head being frustrated

"I wish I can feel you guys with me but I Just can't"I said

"I love you guys"I said getting up and dusting my butt off and walking off to my car

I get in and sit there looking ahead of me

then I leave heading back to the house

Then Jocelyn flores comes on and I couldn't help but cry

I pull up to the house and walk into the house and no sound to be heard

That's when I let the loud sobs come out

Your parents 8 year anniversary wouldn't you be crying like this

I run up to my room and sit at the end of the bed with my head in my hands and breath uncontrollably

I grab the bottle of water that sits next to my bed and walk into the bathroom and opening my mirror cabinet

I see the medication bottle and take it out staring at it fighting with my mind of weather or not to do it

"I have nothing to loose"I said

I opened the bottle and dumped the rest into my hand

I unscrewed the cap from the bottle and I was about to swallow the pills when someone busts through the door

Ethan looks at me in shock and slaps the pills out of my hands I threw the water bottle at him

I slide down the wall crying bring my knees to my chest and hanging my head low

"Ellington what the fuck"he said coming by my side and rubbing my back

"Why"he added

"I have nothing to loose"I said lifting my head up

"Yes you do"he said

"What"i said looking at him

"Us your friends where like family to you Ell you need to think that"he said softly

I stifled a laugh

"Why didn't you let me Ethan I Was so close"I said running my hands through my hair

"Because I care about you Ell I don't want to walk in on you dead"he said

"You don't understand how much we care for you"he said

I got up and walked in my closet and changed into my comfy shorts taking off my bra and then putting on a sports bra then my shirt and walking back out

Ethan stands in my bathroom with a broom and a dustpan sweeping up the pills

He finishes and throws them away downstairs so I couldn't get to them

He comes back upstairs and I guess he started talking but I zoned it out not listening

He was about to leave but I stoped him

"Can you please stay in here"I asked him as his back faced me

He sighed nodding his head turned around shutting the door and walking back over and getting into bed

"Can you not tell anyone"I asked him as he pulled me towards his chest

"Why"he asked me

"It's embarrassing and I'm already in enough shit"I said as I lightly rubbed his chest

"Ok"he said

I grabbed my phone and set my alarm for volleyball then I put it down closing my eyes and going to sleep

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Ellington was asleep so I took her phone and made sure to hold it up to her face to get in

I then walked out and went to her contacts and seeing her doctors name and then tapping it

He picked up after the first ring

"Ellington how are you"he said happily

"Um hi but this isn't Ellington it's her friend"I said into the phone as I walked outside so Ell wouldn't know what I'm doing

"Ok but where is she is she alright?"he asked me worried

"Kinda she tried to use the medicine your prescribed her to kill herself but I slapped it out of her hands and now their in the trash"I said

"So you need more medication for her"he asked me

"Yes but I'm not gonna give it to her I'm gonna keep it with me and give it to her when she needs it"I said

"Your a good man I'll right a note to the pharmacy and you can pick it up later"he said as I hear him click his pen

"Thank you"I said and we hung up and I went back upstairs to Ellington's room and set her phone back down on the charger

I got back in her bed and went on my phone playing games

Her alarm went off and she jumped up in a gasp

"You good Ell?"I asked her turning off my phone

"Yeah"she said getting up turning off the alarm and walking to her closet and grabbing her clothes for practice

Today is gonna be a long day

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