(Highly recommend listening to "the few things by jp saxe" on repeat throughout this chapter)
It's been 3 days, three days of waiting around for him to wake up. Or for something to happen. I feel hopeless.
As his girlfriend I should be the one to help him, but there's absolutely nothing I can do.
But just sit here. And watch him.
I haven't left the hospital once. Thankfully they have showers in grays room.
Today I decided I would put on some makeup just to make myself feel better.
"Lia, is it okay if we go home and try and get some sleep. We haven't slept good since we've been here. And it's really taking a toll on us. We will be back later today" Lisa explained.
"Yeah of course" I said.
"You should try and get some sleep too. I think it would be good for everyone" I said to Ethan as he almost looked sickly.
"No lia I can't leave. What if he dies and I'm at home sleeping" he says standing up.
He paces the room getting very stressed.
"Ethan listen to me, this. Isn't healthy. You need good sleep. Go home and sleep. Come back later tonight and we can power through the next few days" I convinced.
"Okay. Fine." He said as he grabbed his phone.
I nodded at him and watched as the 3 of them exited the room.
There was no way I was leaving.
I sat next to Grayson and watched as his chest lightly moved up and down. There were light sounds of breath. It was the most sound I've herd out of him since the accident.
It had been a long couple of days. Probably the longest week I've ever had.
I hadn't cried in a few days because I felt like I needed to keep it together. I needed to be strong in front of Grayson's family. I don't want to add stress to the situation so hiding my feelings was the best thing I could to.
But I couldn't anymore. So I cried.
A lot.
I sat at the edge of Grayson's bed as I held his hand.
Tears rolled down my face as I silently sobbed.
"Baby please, I can't do this alone. Please wake up. I can't do this without you I need you" my cries became harder and I hated it. I hated being so vulnerable.
A few minutes go by and Grayson's breaths become louder.
His chest moves faster then it has in days.
"What's happening?" I question as I stand up and get closer to him.
His body became tense and less relaxed.
I didn't know what was happening and I began to panic.
I hurried down the hall and looked for the nurse I talked to a few nights back. she had been checking on grayson all day.
"Grayson's breathing weird and his body is tensing up" I explained.
She quickly walked down the hall into his room where she began checking the machines around him.
"Lia, this is good" she explains kindly.
"How?" I ask confused on how this could be good.
"His body is healing enough to the point he's ready to wake up"
I was almost shocked. I didn't think it would happen. I didn't think I would ever get to see his eyes open again. Or hear him say my name.
Or hear the way he talks about our baby. Or the way he would lay his head on my belly as she would talk to her. And tell her she wasn't aloud to get a boyfriend, and that she couldn't wear makeup because she's already gonna be too pretty.
Thinking about it made me smile. But then I realized that he may never be the same again. He might not walk. He might not be able to chase our baby around.
And worse of all, he may not remember anything. He might not remember our plans, or us. He might not understand that in a few months, his baby will be born. He might not remember that we were supposed to get an apartment together.
Maybe he won't feel the same for me anymore. Maybe he won't want to be apart of the baby's life.
Maybe he won't wake up.
I shook my head Trying to get the thought out of my head before my mind wanders even more.
I'm scared enough already. I don't need to make up those situations in my head like I always do.
Don't over think it Lia.
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As the day went on I continued to watch Grayson. I'd talk to him and beg him to wake up.
I sat with my head against the bed as I felt my eyes start to fall heavy. As much as I wanted to stay awake, I couldn't. I was so tired. I was exhausted.
As I'm about to fall into a deep sleep I feel something rub against my head.
The sudden movement was almost alarming. I quickly sat up and rubbed my eyes as I watched Grayson's body move around. Small moments such as slightly shifting his legs. But it was movement.
The most life I've seen from him in almost a week.
"Grayson?" I question.
"Babe?" I say lightly patting his legs.
His legs twitched as my hands barely touched him.
He can feel me touching him.
Over the next hour or so his movements became larger.
I pulled my phone out recording his reactions to when I would touch him. The smallest movements felt like something to celebrate about.
I sat closely watching him as there was a knock at the door.
"Come in" I said watching the door.
The door slowly opened as Ethan sean and Lisa came in.
"How's it going?" Lisa asks as she walks over to Grayson and I.
"He's moving" i say as I continued watching him.
"Look" I said as I got their attention.
I lightly touch Grayson's legs. And before My hands leave his skin, his legs barely shift.
Everyone's face light up as this was a big step.
Waking up is next. Come on babe.
Lisa walked over to gray and grabbed his face lightly. "Gray honey please wake up"
Seeing this made my heart hurt. Nobody should ever have to beg their son to wake up.
I look at Ethan who is struggling to watch. He bites his lip as he looks up at the ceiling not wanting to look at his mom.
As the night goes on things start to progress. Sometimes we would even get facial expressions out of him. But his big eyes haven't opened yet.
But I have a feeling they will.
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End of chapter. Lmk what you think:) I might start putting song recommendations at the beginning of these chapters. These are songs I've listened to while writing or just songs that apply to the situation.
