Stuck in the moment

Chapter 44

Serenity :

There are things na kahit anong gawin mong tago, malalaman at malalaman parin talaga. Siguro dahil totoo ang kasabihan na "walang lihim ang hindi na bubulgar"

Masama ba akong' kaibigan?

Masama ba na protektahan sila sa posibiledad na sakit na maidulot ko sa kanila?

Or mas mali ba na hindi ako nag tiwala sa kanila.?

This is the most painful homecoming!

Walang kaibigan na sasalubong.

No friend na mangungulit kung ano ang pasalubong nila.

I must thankful na kahit may nangyari ng hindi maganda Jasper choose to stay beside me. Kung wala s'ya Hindi ko na talaga kakayanin

That day na nag kita kami ni Zeke, i don't have the courage to tell him. Umalis ako, tinalikoran ko s'ya without telling him the truth.

I feel like my heart is crashing into tiny pieces. I am the cause of his pain, I am the reasons of his tears!
He don't deserve that pain his been feelin' right now.

Tahimik lang ako buong flight, i barely talk. Pag tinatanong lang ako saka ako sumasagot.

Na unang umuwi si mommy at daddy, there is no reason for me to stay there. Everyday is getting worst. kaya hiniling ko na lang na gusto ko ng uuwi ng pilipinas, i wanna die in my own country.

I feel jasper hold my hand and squeezed it lightly.

You okay? He ask...

I smile at him, yeah, don't worry.

Seren, i'm here, we get through this.

I know. Tipid ko s'yang nginitian.

If only i could turn back time, sana hindi ako naglihim Sa kanila.

Kaya mo ba silang harapin? He asked again.

Napabuntong hininga ako.

Kakayanin ko, i --- need to tell them, even though it's too late for them to know the truth.

Siguro sasampalin ako ni alice. Sabi ko pa.

No doubt about that. Maldita yun e, natatawa namang sabi nito.

Suoer close sila ni atticus kahit hiwalay na sila, dagdag pa nito.

Yeah friend with benifits sang ayon ko, i like Alice for my kuya Skyler.

Ang Bias mo.

Hindi naman, hinayaan ko naman sila ni atticus na maging sila eh, hindi ko lang talaga nararamdaman na magkakatuluyan sila.

Manghuhula ka na?

Sira ka din.

We the plane take of mas lalo akung nakaramdan ng kaba. 11am na sa pinas and it takes hour bago kami makadating sa mansyon namin.

I miss my home. My home sweet home. Nilibot ko ng tingin ang paligid. My mom's garden maganda padin, the gazebo alagang alaga pa din, the fountain in the front of our house maayos pa din, pina alagaan talaga ng mga magulang ko. Mamaya na ako pupunta sa likod ng bahay, i miss the pool. And the cottage where me and my friends always do the barbecue party there.