Boulevard Of Broken Dreams [ Wattys 2015 ]

XIX - "I'm falling.."

I practically break the door by knocking as hard as I can.

"Wait the fuck up!" I hear Mickey shout from inside.

He opens the door quickly and stares at me with concern in his face.

"Dem?! Fuck, are you okay?" he yelled as I passed him running.

Kris walks in front of me, her chest rising up and down harshly. She grabs my arm and stops me from aiming upstairs for my room.

"Jesus! The fuck?!" she yells shaking my shoulders.

"I .. I want to talk to you." I whisper to her.

"Okay, okay!" she furrowed her eyebrows confused.

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"I'm falling... In love." I said, sweat dripping on my forehead.

"So?" Kris said shrugging.

"I can't... I don't know."

"That why you came like a freak?" she asked, raising a brow.

"Yes... I mean-"

"Oh my Lord." she facepalms herself.

Soon, I find her slapping me.

"The fuck?" I shout in pain. She has a really hard hand.

"Wake the fuck up! It's fucking love. He loves you back? Good. Go French kiss, do cute stuff and have sex! Jesus." she yells shaking her head.

"But I can't fall in love with anyone. I'm-"

"Just because you're bipolar it doesn't mean you don't have the right to have a proper lover and other shit." she continues. "There are people in the world, who have even cancer, and still; they live happily and fuck every night. Even though they know they're gonna die one day. Like, have you read The Fault In Our Stars? I don't see why you're fucking sweating and running!"

"I'm scared." I say and a tear runs in my cheek. "I'm scared I'm gonna fuck up like every time else and I'll hurt him."

"Demi," she hugged, "Shut up and let go of those thoughts. The more you think it's gonna happen the more it has probability to happen." Kris smiled. "Remember the law of attraction? Think damn positive!"

"You're acting like a chicken. This isn't even proper for someone who has gone through so much as you. Issues and misfortune is supposed to make us stronger, remember?"

I quickly nod.

"If I see you get like this again, I'll tell Mickey to grab that baseball bat and kick the shit out of you." she threatened, hiding a smile behind her grumpy face. "I'm serious!"

"But what if-"

"Demi Lovato, you clearly don't want a bat shoved up your ass, do you?"

"Okay."

"Okay."

"Feeling a bit 'John Green'-y over there?" I ask smiling.

"Yeah, yeah. Ann said we should watch the movie. Tears and shit, all it was." she rolls her eyes.

"I'm sure one day you'll find someone for yourself, too."

"Nah." she makes a disgusted face. "Not for me."

I laugh at her answer and wipe my eyes.

"Hey, Kris!" I ask before she leaves.

"Huh?"

"Who's Carrot Top?"

"Oh, just someone special." she winks and closes the door.

short chap guys :/ sorry but tomorrow is chapter 20 day and i am preparing a reallllyyyyylooong thing, so today chapter was just not to break the daily update

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oh and i'm writing a new story soon but it's in albanian anyway it's horror and scary do don't read xp byeee