Demon of my Demons

Twenty Eight: Mari Secrets

Not a Day Goes By - Lonestar

-Sirius-

"So this is, the place you first met her." Chax says upsettingly.

"Yes." I say simply again.

"Why did you do it Sirius? You always have said that you hate your father, so why listen to him and burn down the village?" Chax asks sighing.

"I don't know." I say simply again.

"Sirius, you think she will forgive you?" Chax asks me seriously.

I stood there as my chest tightens more, and I glance over at the burned down village. Will she forgive me for destroying her whole village? I thought doubting it. Why would anyone be stupid enough to forgive a demon for burning down there whole village. It would be a miracle if she forgave me, especially since I betrayed her and sent her away. I really hope Cordelia is okay, hope she's safe. My heart aches just knowing she's not here beside me and that she could be in danger. In danger because of me, and it would all be my fault. Once again. I let out a sigh as I set Zakary down on the grass, and I sat down next to him as I look over to Chax.

"She would be stupid if she ever forgave me." I tell him sadly.

"No. It doesn't make her stupid, it would make her a forgiving person whose giving you a second chance." Chax tells me sincerely.

"Second chance huh? I think I already blew that up already." I tell Chax disappointed.

"Well still, she will give you another chance. I believe that she will forgive you." Chax tells me with a small smile.

"I highly doubt that Chax. I just hope the bastard isn't hurting her." I say feeling my chest aching again.

"I don't know." Chax says honestly.

"That doesn't make me feel any better." I say glaring at him.

"I'm sorry but I don't know what Alistair is doing to her. I'm sorry but you are the one who sent her away Sirius." Chax tells me seriously.

I flinch at that, before looking away from him. That's right. It's my fault and it will always be my fault. Especially if he hurts her, because I'm the one who sent her away in the first place. Cordelia is gone, and who knows if I'll ever see her again. Wait, no. I will never see her again. I thought upset as a flash of painful memories comes to my thoughts.

"I'll leave then. I won't come back." Cordelia tells me with disappointment.

"No! This is ridiculous, she was only trying to save her life." Jessamyn tries to reassure everyone.

"Shut it before you join her." Vetis growls at her.

Chax glares at her before pulling Jessamyn closer to himself for protection. I stare at them for a moment, before looking over at Cordelia. I notice the frown on her face as she looks over at me. I felt my chest tighten, and it feels like my heart is aching from what I'm doing. A feeling that I don't like, but all I know is that I have to do this or I'll be frowned upon. My heart quickens when she walks over to me and without hesitation, she wraps her arms around me hugging me.

"I'm sorry. I hope you can forgive me someday. Goodbye Sirius." Cordelia says before stepping away.

I just stare at her not knowing what to do, until suddenly Alistair grabs onto her shoulder tightly. I look at him with caution in my eyes, but then I widen my eyes when he's glaring down at me. I hope he's not planning on starting something. I thought annoyed. I'm already kicking out my soulmate, and I don't need to get into any fights right now. I'm just not feeling like it at the moment.