Demon of my Demons

Thirty Two: It's Time

I Would Do Anything For You by Foster The People

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-Alistair-

It's your fault.

It's your fault.

It's your fault.

That damn sentence keeps coming back, it's haunting me. Haunting me for the rest of the life that I still have. It's not my fault, it is my fault. I don't know what to believe in anymore. This revenge has been on my mind ever since I've been locked up, and now I feel so conflicted. I hate it. I don't like this and I should know exactly what I want. This conflicting feeling shouldn't stop me, it shouldn't. So, what should I do about this conflict feeling I'm feeling inside of me?

Should I continue or shouldn't I? Am I really just blinded by my revenge? I don't know what to think, don't know what to do. I've always hated, always been planning for my revenge that I never thought about anything else. Did I really get someone else whose actually innocent out of all of this? Should I care? I'm a fallen now, and I shouldn't care but something in me is telling me that, well that I should. No. I had enough of disruptions and people blaming me for everything. They should be blaming Lucifer, he started all of this. He made me like this. If I wasn't like this, then that little girl would've been alive. I wouldn't be here planning to kill Sirius and Cordelia. I'm not doing this because I'm bad. I'm doing this because I have too. Lucifer made me do all of this. I'm at the brink of death, and I need to at least try and get revenge on Lucifer. He deserves it after all. He deserves everything that's coming to him.

I glance down at my hand, and see that it's slowly starting to disappear. The tips of my fingers are already gone, and it's still slowly disappearing. I'm not even turning into dust. I confirm. It's how I expected it though, I'm dying. Maybe not today, maybe not this month, but it will be this year and this century that I will finally perish forever. I don't know if this is what I want, or if this is actually my fathers doing. Heh. What am I saying? Of course it's his doing, he doesn't want someone like me around anymore. I'm a disgrace, a hideous being that shouldn't have been alive this long. I look away from my hands as I don't even feel afraid. I'm glad this is happening. It's about time. I've been waiting for this day to come, and now that it has I'm welcoming it. I smirk as this is what I've been wanting. It's been what I've been looking forward too. The problem, is that girl. Cordelia. I don't know what it is but she knows how to make me feel bad. To make me think. I need her to complete my revenge, but am I willing to after everything she keeps saying? What she keeps pointing out? Will I even be able to kill her for my revenge?

Yes. I am.

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-Sirius-

"Alright everyone, let the training begin!" I order everyone.

I watch as everyone starts training for this battle that we are doing later on tonight. My heart thumped as we are getting closer to saving Cordelia. I just push the feeling aside as I turn towards Zakary and Lebara. They aren't training, because they are coming with me to form a plan to rescue Cordelia. I kind of already have a plan, but I have to be careful in order to not get her killed. I clench my fists together as this is stupid, because I managed to kill Xena by myself. Why am I worried? Yeah Alistair will be tougher, but nothing a Prince of Hell can't handle. I can do this, and as long as I have my friends along with some other demons, a fallen, and my father helping me this should be a piece of cake.

"So what's the plan?" Zakary asks.

"Here's what I got, we will hide until the distractions distract Alistair. Once he isn't looking and is outside, we will sneak in and start looking for Cordelia. We got to be careful though, because I don't know if he has an army or not. If he does, then we will have to do some fighting which may draw his attention." I explain to them seriously.