i finally did it. i blocked them aithout warning. they were supposed to meet me on thursday, two days before my birthday, and so we video called yesterday. it was... awkward.
then they said "hang on, i have to call you back."
they ended the call
and like the dumbass i am, i believed that theyd call me back.
5 minutes
10 minutes
20 minutes
nothing. i texted them.
"Hey, are we still on for Thursday?"
they read the message. i got no reply, so i deleted it and blocked them.
im tired of being the pathetic one who gives my all and gets nothing in return.
i have them everything and they just brushed me off, pushed me aside.
do you know how much that hurts?
i came to the realization that they never really loved me. they never made the effort.
it was all pity and lust.
i hate myself for falling for their tricks and not reading the obvious signs early enough.
i hate myself for getting involved with them.
i hate myself so much
YOU ARE READING
while i ache
De Todothis is me *to clarify: its a public journal there is going to be fucking spelling errors, deal with it this isnt me being a fucking attention whore, dont @ me
