while i ache

crave

i wish so desperately for someone to touch me. not in a sexual way, either. i wish people would sit by me without the obvious disdain and disgust in their expression. i wish people would hug me or hold my hand or press their leg against my own. i wish people would lean on me or use me as a pillow or a footrest.

i wish people would walk by and accidentally fucking brush their hand against my arm or something..

i need touch... i crave it so much its almost painful.

im so starved of affection i forget what it feels like to be noticed or acknowledged.

.. am i really so disgusting that people cant even bear to cast a glance my way? or shake my hand? or even grace my existence with a high five?

i feel utterly useless