Deadliest of Sins

Chapter 13: Pity

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Annalissa's POV

      After everyone left, I finally felt like I could breathe peacefully. Just as I took a deep inhale of hospital, Noah came out of the bathroom and gave me a heart stopping smile. "I thought I'd stay the night with you. I told Cristiano and your parents to go home and rest. They are going to drop Athena off at Alexander and Ximena's house to spend the night. Alex says hi and he is glad you are okay. He is with Ximena because the pregnancy seems to be draining her." Grabbing my dry erase board I had made Cristiano go buy at Walmart, I quickly scribbled down a note for him to read.

You can go home and rest. I can spend the night by myself.

   I secretly did not want him to leave, but if he was tired I knew it would be selfish of me to make him stay up and sleep on a tiny hospital chair. He took my face in his hands and brought me eyes to meet his. "Squirt, I am not going anywhere." he whispered, as he rubbed my cheeks, making the blood rush up my neck and to my cheeks. I am sure I looked like a bloody tomato. His minty breath fanned over my face as he leaned in closer. Our lips were only millimeters away, either of us shifted and we would kiss. It felt like an eternity before I closed the gap and I felt the familiar warm lips on mine.

    The kiss again was gentle and a tad painful, because my jaw was still every sore. Tingles spread like a wildfire throughout my body. I pressed my lips harder against his and wrapped my hands in his hair, slightly tugging on the dark strands. He slowly pulled away and kissed both my cheeks and then traveled down my jaw to my neck, leaving a scorching path wherever he touched. A moan escaped my lips and seemed to ignite a fire within Noah. His teeth grazed my neck sucking and tugging on the area between my neck and shoulder blade. I wanted, NO NEEDED HIM. My body was craving him in ways it never had before, it was a craving him so much it hurt.

      As if knowing what I was thinking, Noah backed away from me with a pained expression on his gorgeous face. Taken off guard, I question whether or not he was actually into it. To say I was confused would be an understatement, was I reading his signals wrong? He was the one who made the first move, he was the one who said he loved me. Was this a dream? It was not the first time I had dreamt of him saying he loved me. Reaching for my board, ready to ask what the hell was going on, but he beat me to it. "We can't" was all he said. A sharp pain emanated from my chest and spread through my body, I never did well with rejection. The air was knocked out of my lungs, I began to feel woozy and in desperate need for water. "We can't do anything until I find the asswipes that did this. I need to make sure you are safe, and we all agree that what happened to you was because of me. Someone knows of my feelings for you and is trying to use you against me." He said looking deep into my eyes. "I made a lot of enemies over the years Squirt. I need you to understand that I love you and I always have, but I will not put you and Athena in any danger ever again. You will be moving back into your parent's house. This will be the last time you see me for a while." he explained. He did love me, but he thought this was his fault. I desperately wanted to scream that it wasn't his fault, but my stupid jaw wouldn't let me.

    Tears formed in my eyes of frustration. Why the hell did everyone think of me as some fragile damsel in distress? I mean, yes I did have two near death experiences in a span of three weeks, but I could take care of myself. He couldn't leave when I had just got him back.

But I will be fine! I know you guys won't let anything happen to me anymore. Just please, don't do this to us.

    I scribbled across the board. Athena had just got her father back in her life, she needed him. I needed him. "Go to sleep Squirt. I will be here in the morning." Not wanting to fight anymore, I laid down and patted the spot next to me. He eyed it for a second before crawling in next to me and kissing my forehead, and gently stroking my hair until my eyes grew heavy and I fell asleep.

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    When I woke up in the morning, he was gone. I wasn't surprised, but extremely hurt. Being forced to move back to your parent's house, not only sucks but is annoying. Every five minutes my mom would come into my room to check on me, but I think she was secretly trying to make sure I had not escaped. Don't get me wrong I had come up with about fifty different scenarios, but in every one of them I had failed. Every day I got up and pretended to be okay, not wanting to alert my parents of how horrible I was actually feeling.

    After a week the damn wires were removed from my jaw, and the craving on my stomach was finally healed. Every morning I woke up and changed my clothes or showered, only to be confronted with the ugly raw looking scars that read Scorpion Whore. The cuts that once littered my arms were now just tiny red lines that I concealed with long sleeved shirts and hoodies. Some days I burned my ass off from the South Texas summer heat, but I did not want anyone to see my scars. The pity stares I received from friends and family were enough to make me lock myself in my room, and only to come out when necessary.

    The only human interaction I looked forward to was hanging out with Athena, but even she couldn't help the dull sting in my heart. Noah had made good on his promise and did not show his face around the club house or my parent's house. Avoiding everyone like they had the plague, I quickly walked to my car and buckled Athena in her car seat. I threw my purse and her diaper bag in the passenger's seat, and put my seat belt on. Before I took off I turned my phone off and tossed it to the bottom of my purse.

    The constant hovering from my mother and pity looks from my siblings, was driving me insane, I wanted time to myself. So here I was at eleven o'clock at night, driving away from my suffocating family and into a city where I was a face amongst many others.

    Ten hours of driving, and we  had finally arrived in Texarkana. A little town on the line between Texas and Arkansas, where everyone knew each other. I had turned my phone on as soon as I arrived at the hotel and was immediately bombarded with missed calls and text messages from everyone, even a certain man who had left one morning and never called with an explanation. Ignoring all of them, I laid down in the bed that was right next to the window and on the left hand side slept Athena in her play pen, I was smart enough to pack.

    It felt like I was finally able to relax, no one knew where I was and I did not have to fake. Yes, I was miserable but I could live with that. As long as I had Athena I would be fine. So after running away from everyone and getting my child and myself out of the dangerous town where we lived in fear, we were finally safe and I did not plan on going back.

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  End of Chapter 13, what do you think? 

My husband and I were discussing her behavior, and he said she is being selfish and irrational, what do you guess think? Let me know in the comments, and don't forget to follow me and vote vote vote! 

Love, Alyssa (: