His Possession (1D5SoS FanFic)

Chapter One

For the hundredth time, I found myself afraid of something.

No, its like, Im afraid of everything of what might happen after I blink, I breathe, I move, I see, I talk, I laugh...

Im afraid of everything.

Sometimes I think, what should I do to keep me going if Im afraid?

A huge fear is starting to eat the inside of me.

Each day I see that it was a lost in me.

I want to do what I used to do but I see myself as a hopeless case.

I laugh, I do stuffs but I was in this state wherein 'do I really feel contented? Does it really makes me happy? Am I still normal?'

Im afraid of losing of an unknown.

I wish Life was just as easy as staring a Leaf falls from a tree, watching the Rain Drops fall from the sky and just like Listening to a Song that defines all the emotion you have inside.

But life is not fair and will never be.

What you want will slipped in your hands the moment you've got to hold them.

You try to survive, scars will define you. Tears & screams will make you stronger and build a different character inside you.

You've got to use it and you will feel like 'Its not YOU' anymore.

Trials will measure your patience and capability, how far are you going to push yourself in a thought that 'You should surpassed it'.

You've got to try everything to let you come out just like a steel set on fire, heated, hammered,molded, then dipped into a cold water. But after you've been through, its not yet the ending. Another trial will come and test how strong you've become.

Dont doubt in yourself, never be.

All the time, I comfort everyone but no one sees I need one too.

One that I know that wont leave me coz he knows Im too scared to be alone again. Someone who can

hold my hand then hug me and tell everything will be alright. That he will keep me safe and sound.

I was to afraid to go on, knowing that everything is uncertain, everything is unmaintainable, everything ends.

And Im so afraid of endings.

Im afraid to risk coz of the fact that later than soon, it would be like a star dying like an amber.

Im trapped with the thought that, maybe without pushing so hard, I dont have to lose or there's nothing to end.

But how long it will going to be?