His Possession (1D5SoS FanFic)

Chapter 26

Alexisse POV

I woke up so early and i dont have anything to do today. After i ate my breakfast and took a shower.

I went back to my room again and started to continue my painting again. Its a portrait of a beautiful scenery in Sydney where we always hang out before.

When i got bored again, i went back to my bed and read the novel: Delirium by Lauren Oliver.

Love, the deadliest of all deadly things: It kills you both when you have it and when you don't.

That was so true. What i feel today is like the character of this book. Full of hesitations, full of fears.

Love: it will kill you and save you, both.

What if i didnt let myself fall to anyone? never made those mistakes before? What if i never met Harry and end up taking all of i have before? What if i never met Ashton?

I wouldnt be that happy, i wouldnt be crying today. I wouldnt have this baby boy inside me. I wouldnt have to get through all of this. Maybe if i just got his calls and told him everything, maybe we're still together and i have him on my side, taking care of us.

And its true that regrets come to last. When everything is too late to save.

I wiped my tears and draw circles on my baby bump.

"I miss your dad so much..." i mumbled still my tears were rolling down on my cheeks.

"I wish he was here. But i guess he's already moved on?" i talked to him like he really could understand.

"Im not. Your guess is wrong." he said and i turned my face on the door.

I saw Ashton standing, hesitating to get near me. My body wants to jump on him and hold him now.

"A-ashton..." i mumbled crying.

"Im sorry for everything babe..." he said then came to hug me tight.

"W-what are you doing here?" i brazenly asked giving him a death glare.

He's taken aback "I-i came here to fix our relationship. I came here to take care of you and our baby." he said.

"How did you know that i am pregnant? Are you not even gonna accuse me again? Did you even believe that its yours?" i said raising my voice to him.

"Yes...And im sorry if i said those things. Please Alex please. Stop this now, i know your condition and its bad for you to be like this. Please lets talk in a calmer way." he pleaded trying to calm me.

"No Ashton! you left me! for almost 4 months! and now you're here saying sorry? What the fuck Ashton! Im in hell when you left me! you didnt even bother to call me or text me how am i? You never care Ashton!" i yelled and almost burst my anger to him.

Fuck this hormones.

He kneeled down and grasped my hands but i snatched it harshly. "I do! Always! You think im happy when i broke up with you? No Im not and it kills me like hell! Please Alex... I still love you, i tried calling you but you never answer your phone. I asked Harry where could i possibly find you and he told me that maybe you were here. I tried to get here as soon as i can but we need to go back in L.A. I need to wait for weeks again before i can come here. Please Alex, i know im such a bastard doing that to you. Im sorry please... You can hit me with anything. Kill me if you want, just please please forgive me. I love you so much and i cant afford to lose you again." he said crying so hard.

He cares. And he's not happy of what happened in our relationship.

I pulled him up and hugged him. We're still both crying so hard.