Perfect Face (TaeJin FanFic) (Completed)

Anpanman

Jin's POV

Fears are like shadows, we may not always feel its presence but we know it exists.

I dreamt of that boy again. It's been years since I last saw Him in my nightmares. I really thought that I was able to forget his existence but the fear he instilled in my young mind are still there. Ready to come out and ruin me once it have a chance.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Taehyungie sleeping peacefully beside me.

Finally, I was able to breathe properly.

I'm glad I didn't woke him up. It's still early and we will have our final practice today so he needs to rest while he can.

I let my gaze linger on Taehyung's perfect face while my mind wondered.

When I was seven, my parents adopted another kid. People said he resembled me alot and thought he's my real brother but I can't confirm it because I can barely remember his face nor his name. It is as if my mind purposely erased him from my memory.

All I know is that we used to be best of friends...Or so I thought. Even at a young age, that boy was really possessive. He wanted my full attention on him and he will get angry when I ignore him or if something caught my interest.

Since that boy forbid me to have friends aside from him, I developed my love for reading. But that took so much of my time. I used to hide in my room to read until my parents came home.

And then one day, I found all my favorite books ruined and burned. I confronted him but he just said.

"You don't need those damn books, Prince. All you will ever need is me. No matter where you go, I know you will always come back to me"

That's when I started to know fear. Things got worse to worst until my parents found out.

They returned that boy to the orphange and we moved to Seoul to start over.

But I guess it's too late since he already planted fear in my heart.

Taehyung's POV

"Are you okay Jinie?" I backhugged him and put my chin on his wide shoulder.

Jin didn't answer, he just took my hands that was wrapped in his waist and kissed it.

We've just finished our final rehearsal for our debut performance tomorrow and Jin seemed like he's out of focus. He made mistakes in our choreography multiple times and Hobi Hyung scolded him.

After practice, Hobi Hyung apologized and cheered Jin which cleared the air between them.

But still, Jin seemed upset. When we came home, he remained quiet and locked himself in his room.

Now I found him in the balcony while drinking a glass of milk.

I let silence linger for few minutes before I speak again. "Is there something bothering you?"

He nodded.

When he turned to look at me, there's an obvious trace of tears in his eyes.

I wiped it with my fingers while looking at his handsome face. I'm used to cheerful and smiling Jin so seeing him crying right now broke my heart.

I want to comfort Jin but I'm lost for words. I'm afraid I might stutter or say something wrong so all I did was put my hand on his head and caressed it.

Jin seemed to understand my intention so he hugged me and cried his heart out.

How I wish I can be good with words like Namjoon Hyung so that I can give Jin comforting words. But this is all I can do to make him feel that he's not alone.

After Jin calmed down, he took my hand and intertwined our fingers. We're looking at the dark sky but oddly, the stars were barely visible and the moon are hiding on the clouds.

"I'm sorry if I made you worry" Jin said.

I shooked my head. "I'm not good with words but I'm a good listener. You can tell me anything Jin"

Jin smiled and nodded. "Okay I will tell you. I actually have a lot of things in my mind right now so this can be long"

I gave him an encouraging smile. "That's okay. I will listen"

"Tomorrow is my graduation day but I will not be able to attend it. I wanted to at least say goodbye properly to my classmates but I know there's nothing I can do about it" Jin sighed.

"Even if you will not be able to see them, they can watch our performance. I know they will understand and be proud when they see you fulfilling your dreams"

"You have a point" Jin smiled but it didn't last long.

"What else is bothering you, Jinie?"

He took a deep breath. "What is fear for you Taehyungie?" Jin asked.

I thought about it for few seconds before I answered.

"Fear is a vague word but I think I understand its meaning quite well. It is an invisible chain that our mind created to bind us"

Jin seemed let my words sink in as he got lost in his own thoughts.

"What are you afraid of Jin?" I asked.

He smiled at me sadly. "I'm afraid of alot of things Taehyungie"

I understand how fear works. Fear slowly devour you until you can no longer break free from it. I've been living in fear for years.

I will never let Jin go through the same hell I've been.

"Do you know Anpanman Jinie?" I asked suddenly which took him by surprise.

"I do, I guess. Why?"

"I can be your Anpanman"

"What do you mean Taehyungie?"

"He's like me. Anpanman is weak and can't do much but he's still a Superhero" I covered face because of embarassment but I continued.

"I can't be your Superman or other strong Superhero but I will be here when you need me. If I need to sacrifice myself to save you from your fears, I will do it"

Jin finally smiled and the cloud of fear subsided from his eyes.

"I don't need the strongest Superhero Tae. You're enough"

I pulled Jin closer and let his head rest close to my heart. "Are you sure?"

Jin nodded. "You may not be strong but you always give me strength. Thank you, Tae"

I smiled while I'm stroking his head.

"I love you, my Anpanman" I heard Jin whispered.

A/N: Anpanman is actually one of my favorite among my favorite songs of BTS 💜💜💜 I hope you enjoy reading this.