Perfect Face (TaeJin FanFic) (Completed)

Singularity

Taehyung's POV

"You're doing good, Kim Taehyung" I patted my own shoulder while looking at my reflection in the mirror.

I'm trying to hold myself together so that I won't break my mask in front of everyone..in front of Jin.

I'm afraid of a lot of things but most importantly, I'm scared to lose Jin. I don't want to change anything that we have right now even though it means hiding my own pain from him.

I know that I promised not to keep a secret from Jin anymore but I don't think he will agree to do nothing when my rapist are out there having a good life while I suffer.

But I don't want to suffer anymore. I'm tired of being a coward. I'm done hating myself. I need to be better to protect Jin.

I took a deep breath and walk towards my drawer to get my hand phone and played the melody that Namjoon Hyung gave me.

Bang PDnim informed me that I'll do the solo introduction for our next album so I asked Namjoon Hyung to help me create a song.

It is not final yet but he sent me the lyrics draft last night and I can say Namjoon Hyung is a real genius. He was able to make lyrics that expresses my inner turmoil.

I turned my recorder on and tried to fit the lyrics into the melody. I wanted to know how the song will turn out.

A sound of something breaking
I awake from sleep
A sound full of unfamiliarity
Try to cover my ears but can't go to sleep

The pain in my throat gets worse
Try to cover it
I don't have a voice
Today I hear that sound again

It's ringing again, that sound
A crack again on this frozen lake
I dumped myself into the lake
I buried my voice for you
Over the winter lake I was thrown

A thick ice has formed
In the dream I shortly went into
My agonizing phantom pain is still the same
Have I lost myself

Or have I gained you
I suddenly run to the lake
There's my face in it
Please don't say anything

Reach my hand out to cover the mouth
But in the end, spring will come someday
The ice will melt and flow away
Tell me if my voice isn't real

If I shouldn't have thrown myself away
Tell me if even this pain isn't real
What I was supposed to do back then

I almost choked up a sob and my voice faltered with the last line.

I barely explained to Namjoon Hyung what I'm feeling but he clearly understood. The lyrics seemed like it really came from my own mind.

I'm terrified.

The song felt like I'm showing myself bare for everyone to see. I had the same feeling when I showed Jin my scars. And once Jin listened to my song, I knew he would understand my message.

I sighed. "That's okay. Everything will be fine Tae" I tried to comfort myself.

I made a mental note to thank to Namjoon Hyung later when I send the demo version.

Since he and Hoseok Hyung are now together and so in love, we started to get closer.

I always looked up to Namjoon Hyung that's why I felt jealous and insecure when I realized he was in love with Jin.

But now, the air was cleared between us. I'm happy for him and Hoseok Hyung.

My phone rang and I smiled when Jin's name and our photo appeared on my phone screen.