Barry Allen's Sister

Part 11

Harper's POV
When we arrive home I sit at the kitchen table. I was barely able to face Barry with this who is my own brother, but something is different with Joe. I mean he raised me, I wasn't old enough to remember my mom I wasn't old enough to form a bond with my dad before he went to jail. Joe was there for me. Barry sometimes calls Joe a father figure but to me he's my stepdad.

Joe takes a seat across from me and sighs. "I hoped I never would have to have this conversation with you."

"I'm sorry."

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to Harper."

"What do you mean?"

"You've been hurting yourself. You've been hurting your body. Do you know what happens when you starve yourself?"

"Yes."

"Then tell me."

"When there's nothing for your stomach to consume and you start needing energy you're stomach eats away at your body."

"And knowing this you do this?"

"It started when Barry was struck my the lightning, I couldn't bring my self to eat and it just stuck."

"That's not a good enough excuse, there isn't a good enough excuse."

"I know."

"And self harm? Harper why?"

I shake my head "like you said there's no excuse good enough excuse enough."

"Well there had to be one that seemed good enough for you."

"I just couldn't handle it anymore the pain got too painful. I didn't know who to talk to because everyone was worried about Barry and the coma and when he woke up and found out what he was and you knew that I was shipped off to Oliver Queen's. Who by the way I had never met before so I wasn't going to tell him."

Joe sighs. "You can't do this anymore, you could end up killing yourself."

I nod my head, I don't know what to say that would make him happy.

Joe's watch beeps and he looks at it. "I've got to go, it's 1:45."

I nod my head and he leaves.

Iris is at work.

Joe just left.

Barry is at StarLabs.

And I'm home alone.

I check my phone there's 2 texts from Barry and 4 from Oliver.

Barry💛- Joe won't be home until 11 and I'm gonna be held up for a while. Do NOT forget to eat supper.

Barry💛- I mean it Harper, I'm actually going to have Catlin bring you something to eat.

Me- Okay Barry.

Then I check the ones from Oliver. I changed his contact name when was a dink.

Oliver- Harper please call me when you get a chance. I'm sorry okay? I shouldn't have said what I did, I was angry.

Oliver- Harper come on, we just started getting close don't let me being a dink mess with that.

Oliver- Okay, if you want to talk meet me at Big Belly Burger at 3. If you don't show up I'll give you space. I'm going whether or not you reply to this.

I don't reply, I look at the time on my phone 2:15. Do I want to go? Kinda but he was a dink, but if I don't we'll probably never get to be close. I sigh and stand up changing my outfit and putting my hair up in a messy bun.

I don't know what to expect out of this, I don't even know if I'm done being mad at him but it doesn't matter because here I am walking the 15 minutes to Big Belly Burger.

I guess I'm going because I don't have many people who know everything about me and my life so if I wanted to vent to someone my choices are slim.

I arrive to Big Belly Burger 5 minuets early so I order a lemonade and sit down in a booth. I go on my phone and just play a random game until someone sits down in front of me, looking up I see a smiling Oliver. I set my phone on the table.

"I'm happy to see you came." He says.

I nod my head in response. I have secrets that I can't let anyone know, and I don't think that's ridiculous.

"I'm sorry for saying what I said Harper. You're obviously dealing with things and have been for a while. I know that I haven't really made myself available for you to talk to and I'm sorry for that and if I could go back I would change that. I'm sorry that what I notice you not eating that much I didn't put much thought in to it. I'm sorry that you were shipped off to a strangers home after you're brother figured out that he wasn't the same. I'm sorry." He says looking me in the eye.

I look away. "I was here for the malfunction in the particle accelerator." I say automatically covering my mouth. Why did I just say that.

"What? Barry said you were at a friends." Oliver says.

I don't reply. How do I tell him this.

"Harper."

"I was suppose to be. Her brother was having a party that night and something happened and I didn't have a ride so I had to walk home it wasn't too far. When I got home no one was home so I went for a run and that's when it happened." I say still not looking at him.

"Were you affected?"

"No." I lie.

"So why didn't you tell anyone you were here?"

"I don't know." I lie again this time looking him  in the eye.

He nods his head trying to read my face. I've mastered a poker face though over the past few months.

For a few moments it's quiet and then Oliver lifts up one of the menus.

"What do you want?" He asks.

"Oh uh Barry said that Catlin is gonna bring me some food later." I reply.

"And then I texted him when I saw you through the window and told him I took you out to dinner. So what do you want?" He asks.

"I'm not hungry." I reply.

Without saying anything he goes up to the front counter and orders.

20 minutes later he comes back with his food and a burger and a fry for me.

I pick at the fries for a little while only eating 3 until Oliver takes them away from me and opens up my burger putting it back in front of me.

"Eat." He says sternly.

If I eat this I'm going to be sick. I'll puke it up, and not because I want to. I haven't eaten this much at once for months. I shake my head no.

"Harper just eat the burger. Don't you want to get better?" He asks.

I don't say anything, I don't think he'd understand. I take a few bites and my stomach feels okay so I take a few more and then it hits me.

I get up from my seat with out saying a word to Oliver and rush to the girls bathroom.