Sad Love

Chapter 9

SAM'S POV
Last night I couldn't sleep until I heard Nikki come home, I know something is wrong but she won't tell me and I do I worry about her, yes I have a crush on her but I can't help it, and knowing somethings up with her makes me feel like I need to be there for her but we just met and that would be wrong. Not wrong to be there for her as a friend I guess, but this could've happened to anyone that entered the giveaway, but the winner was Nikki, and Nikki is just, I don't know yet, but I'm really worried about her and I'm going to do anything I can to help her and be there for her! I want to be close to her and be her friend but what about my reputation, I can't ruin that either. I just don't know anymore!
Something startles me and I jump up in bed, I look around and see it's bright out and that the door is open. I get up to go shut it but I catch a glimpse of someone's leg. I open the door to see who it was and I see Nikki turning to go behind the camp, she looks really pail. I quietly glance over to see what she's doing until I see her vomiting! I run over to her and hold her hair back even though it's shorter, I still want her to know I'm there for her. She throws up a couple more times before she stands up straight and wipes her mouth with some tissues. She can't look me in the eyes but she manages to say something.
"I'm sorry" she whispers.
"For what" I ask not actually knowing why she's sorry.
"I woke you up at 7 am and you had to come out here and see me throwing up and you had to hold my hair back." She looks at me.
"It's not your fault, you can't help it, also I didn't need to hold your hair back" she looks at me with pain in her eyes, "I wanted to" I wrap her in a hug and she hugs me back. We stand there for a minute until she pulls away.
"I won't be able to get back to sleep now" she chuckle, "I'm going to go put on some coffee, you want some?" She offers.
"Yeah sure" I say, she starts to walk away but I stop her, "Are you Okay though, I mean a minute a go you were just, well you know?"
"Yeah I'm fine, just something I ate probably, "just can we please just keep this between us? I don't want Danyelle to worry" she looks down.
"Yeah of course." I smile and with that we walk back to the camp.
~later that morning~
Ugh it still bugs me, I know something is wrong but I can't think of what. I should brush it off and if she wants to tell me then she will, but I just can't help but wonder!
Someone pats me on the back making me jump, I whirl around and see Dean standing there.
"Hey little brother" he smiles.
"Morning" I chuckle, he walks over and grabs a cup of coffee. I do the same, Nikki walks out of the washroom all cleaned up, with her tank top tied at the bottom and her booty shorts. Two strains of hair from both sides are tied back into a ponytail. She walks over and whispers into my ear.
"I saw you staring." She walks outside and brings the dogs. Dean looks at me suspiciously and raises an eyebrow, I shake my head no and head outside as well. Nikki sits on a patio chair and go and join her, she slowly sips on her coffee, I don't even think she notices I'm here until she speaks up.
"Are you excited for the bike ride?"
"I guess, are you?"
"Nah, I'm not going" she sighs.
"Oh, Why not?"
"Ehh don't feel like it I guess" she stands up and starts to head down the stairs, I follow her.
"Oh. Well want me to stay with you?" I ask and now I'm really getting concerned for her.
"It's going to be fun on the ride though, you should go have some fun" she turns to me and looks me in the eyes.
"If it's going to be fun then why aren't you going?" I tilt my head and grin knowing I got her there. She turns and walks towards the water.
"Look it's personal and you pretty don't want to listen to my long, life, so depressing story" she tilts her head back and puts her hand on her forehead while she says that and laughs.
"Well I got time, and I'm here for you" I try to comfort her.
"Yeah, that's what everyone says before they hear my story, once they hear my story they run off" she looks down.
"I know we just met but you can trust me."
"I really love you as an actor and you'd make a great friend or even great to be in a relationship with but not to be mean or anything just here's how I see it. You come here you know me now and for about a week and then you get back to your job and see all of your other fans and you will slowly or quickly forget about me because I'm just another fan! I'm sorry that's just how I feel." She kind of opened up to me, but now I wonder what else is going on, like with her relationships she mustn't have had good ones. Before I can say something Danyelle calls her inside, Nikki starts to walk away but then turns to me and says one more thing.
"Look if you want to stay back with me be my guest, but just warning you it will be a lot more fun with your brother and Danyelle" she throws her arms up in the air and turns back around and walks to Danyelle.
Danyelle and Dean get ready for the ride and I guess Nikki wasn't kidding about staying behind because she stands on the porch with a coffee in her hand as she leans on a beam. I go up to Dean and tell him I'm going to stay behind. A part of him looks happy and the other part looks worried. Without him saying anything I can tell what he's going to say so before he says something I speak.
"I'm fine, I'm just going to stay back here with Nikki" and when he hears that a big smirk comes across his face, "No, that's not what's happening" I chuckle and walk up the stairs and stand by Nikki. I can tell she glance at me but I just watch as Dean and Danyelle drive away leaving Nikki and I here alone.
"Wow, so you were serious about wanting to stay here" she smiles.
"Yep" I smile back at her. We stand there in a comfortable silence for a while, it feels nice. I'm so glad she smiled when she found out I'm staying here with her. It's only Saturday and I can tell this is going to be a good week. I'm so glad she was the winner.