Sad Love

Chapter 13

NIKKI'S POV
The bear charges at me but I can't move, it's like my feet are glued to this horrible, horrible world. So I stand there waiting for the bear to kill me and my eyes swell with tears. I'm the last one left of this family, the last one and I hate it, I'm all alone, but I don't want my last couple seconds of my life to be depressing so I suck it up.
The bear is only steps away from me and a loud noise goes off. The bear falls not even inches away from me and I back up in shock. I fall helplessly to the ground and cry, not because I could've died but because I don't want to die!
Arms wrap around me and I don't care who's arms they are or who's hugging me but I hug back. Of course it's probably Sam, because he's the only guy I know that wears this kind of cologne. But what has me wondering is how'd he know where I was and where'd he get the gun?
After we sit like that for a little while I pull back and speak up.
"How'd you know where I was?"
"Well I thought it was kind of late to be taking your dog out for a run so I thought I would tag along, just with out you knowing" Sam lightly smiles. I wipe the tears away from my eyes and stand up.
   "We should go back before someone finds this bear" I state, Sam nods and with that we are off back home.
   I jog down the driveway with Sam not to far behind, Luke is next to me and he's probably tired. I go in the camp and let him in to rest, not to long after I head back outside and sit on the deck. Sam comes outside after about 30 minuets of me being out here.
   "Is everything ok, sam?" I tilt my head to the side.
   "No just can't fall asleep, how 'bout you?"
   "If I'm being honest" I sigh. "I usually never sleep, and if I do sleep it's when I'm far, far away." I think about how good it must feel to be able to sleep every night.
   "Oh, why can't you sleep?" No not that question I can't tell him, that will make everything bad.
   "Uhh do you want to go swimming?" I ask.
   "It- Yeah sure" Sam smiles. I walk into the washroom and start to change. Not to long after me and Sam meet outside and get in the water
   We both take turns diving off the raft until I decide to sit down and dip my feet in the water, Sam sits beside me.
   "That was fun" Sam sighs.
   "Yeah it was."
   "But how come you don't ever sleep that or you just go to bed after everyone else" Sam questions.
   "Sam we've talked about this, I don't trust famous people, not to be mean or anything-" I sigh as he cuts me off.
   "We clearly like each other so why not give it a go."
   "Because Sam I've dated other celebrities and they're all the same, they tell you that they love you then a week later they don't want nothing to do with you. Not to mention lots of celebrities are just in it for the money" I state hoping I get it through to him.
   "But I'm not like other celebrities, I will get rid of all social media's and-"
   "Sam I wouldn't make you do that, plus it's not that simple, once you're out there your out there for good, but no I wouldn't make someone do that" I sigh.
   "I'm not like other celebrities I promise" he begs.
   "Look Sam it's not just that, it's-"
   "What is it then"
   "I have cancer Sam!" He stays quiet for a minute.
   "Can't the doctors do anything about it?" He softly questions.
   "Nope nothing it spread and now I only have 1 year to live" I say tears welling up in my eyes. Sam looks down and so do I. I don't want to die but I don't have a choice, I've spent most my life being sad and depressed, I wanted to die, but I don't anymore.
   "Sam I'm sorry but I don't want anyone to get hurt, because if we were to be together then in a year- I can't even say it- if we were in love and I were to die, things would not be okay, I can't see you hurt Sam I'm sorry" tears fall down my cheeks and Sam wraps his arms around me. Tears fall down my face faster and faster. I don't want to die. I'm scared to die, I have so much to live for. I have so many things I want to accomplish. The NFR, my mom made it to the NFR and I wanted to make it. I want to have a family, but I'm dying so these thing will never happen.
   Sam slowly pulls away and looks me in the eyes. He slowly leans in and kisses me very passionate, I kiss him back and we pull away.
   "I want you to enjoy the last year of your life, and I will move here for you, please give me a chance" he looks me in the eyes and I can tell he is serious and I trust him.
   "Okay, fine lets give it a go but I can't help it, like I can't help having cancer" I laugh.
"You shouldn't joke about that" Sam chuckles.
"Yeah but I'm not going to live the rest of my life boring and serious" I joke and lightly push him.
"So we are dating?" He furrowed his eyebrows.
"Eww I hate that word so much, but yes we are together" I laugh.
"Okay then, ha."
"Do you think we are rushing it?" I ask concerned.
"Well I mean, I don't think so, we have to start somewhere."
"Yeah I guess so" I sigh, ugh no more being sad. A rush of energy rushes through me so I place a hand on Sam's shoulder, at first he's weirded out but once he knows what I'm doing he tries to save himself but fails as he falls into the cool, dark, water.
"Wow thanks" he laughs when he comes up to the surface.
"Your welcome" I say and plant a big smile on my face. "We should head inside now though."
"Yeah probably" he smiles as I jump in beside him.
"I'll race you back" I yell and dive under the water.