I'm Fine (#Wattys2015)

7

Finally, the viewing is over. I reach into the back pocket on my jeans and grab my phone. My phone is an iPhone, the 4s. It has a British flag case with pictures of me and Kylie and Batman that I made.  I unlock my phone and go to contacts looking for my mom's face. I find it and click on it. A few seconds later she picks up.

"Hello?" Mom asks. Must not have looked at who was calling.

"Mooom... Look at who calls for once. That is why they created caller ID."

"Well hello to you too. And for your information, I have looked at it a few times."

"Ahhh... Will you come get me? The funeral and viewing is over and I just need to go home."

"Sure, Sweets. Be there in a few."

"Thanks. Bye, Mom."

"Bye. Love you." My mom hangs up and I put my phone back in my pocket. Nick left a few minutes ago so there is no one to talk to. He did give me his number for if I want to talk about anything.

Suddenly, I really have to go to the restroom. Like really bad.

I come out a few minutes later and look outside and see that my mom is here. Yes! I can get out of here.

Walking out the door and to the car, I feel like laughing. So I do. Not for very long, but long enough to get a few stares from people who stayed for the whole viewing and are now leaving. Since my mom has her windows rolled down she hears my laughter and starts laughing with me. I get in the car and turn in the radio. I flip through stations for a little while.

"And today's forecast is sunny..... You can be beautiful wonde.... It's a love story baby just say yes... And God so loved the world........ There's a girl in the window, tears rolling down her face" I like Demi Lovato so I keep that station.

I listen to the song and it seems to make me more sad. Is that possible? I guess so.

"We're only lost children, trying to find a friend
Trying to find our way back home

We don't know where to go, so I'll just get lost with you
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together right, we fit together right
These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together like
Two pieces of a broken heart

I know where we could go and never feel let down again
We could build sandcastles, I'll be the queen, you'll be my king
We're only lost children, trying to find a friend
Trying to find our way back home

We don't know where to go, so I'll just get lost with you
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together right, we fit together right
These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together like
Two pieces of a broken heart

Now I can lay my head down and fall asleep
Oh, but I don't have to fall asleep to see my dreams
'Cause right there in front of me (right there in front of me)
There's a boy, lost his way, looking for someone to play

We don't know where to go, so I'll just get lost with you
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together right, we fit together right
These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away
We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together like
We fit together like
Two pieces of a broken heart

There's a boy, lost his way, looking for someone to play"

After the song ends, there are tears falling down my face. I put my head in my hands and rest my elbows on my knees. "Why?" I whisper.