(Authors note: I know I have been shitty with the updates but I'm working on a whole different book. It doesn't have X or Ski or Nahmir or ScarLxrd, it's MGK and Juice WRLD. Idk when I'm publishing it but if you want it out soon comment.) Next Day...
I wake up, look in the mirror and see ever insecurity I have. I wash my face and just get myself together before Nahmir gets here. I get dressed in this
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And text Nahmir - So when u gone get here. Nahmir - It's about 9am, and you already asking? - Nigga I'm tryna get out this hotel. Nahmir - Ard chill, I'll be there around 1. - 1? Ok. I'll probably just get an Uber to get something to eat and keep me busy but if u want to come earlier that wouldn't hurt. Nahmir - Lana. - Ok, fine. I grab my back pack and realize I left some things in Ski room. I left my earphones, wallet, and some makeup. I text him asking him can you have it ready for me to pick up so I wouldn't have to be there searching for it, making it way awkward than it has to be. He said ok so I'm picking it up now.
I knock on the door. He opens looking at me. "So do you have my stuff?" I ask "Uh yea. Can we talk?" He asks me. I take a deep breath and say "yes" because I have nothing else to do. It will take up time so why not. "Solana, I'm sorry. I'm not so used to this commitment, and relationship type shit. I really do love you. You may not believe me but I want to be with you. The other girls are just quickies but nothing ever compares to you." He explains "Stoke. You have to realize, I can't keep going back. I fell for Jah and you know what happened, fell for you and now I'm learning how to get back up. You say you love me but don't show it. You hid you sickness from me, cheated, and so what they're quickies, if you love me so much you wouldn't even consider those girls. Maybe in the future we'll come back to each other or maybe we won't. I just know right now. I need to be alone. I got family to take care of. Bye." I grab my things and head out his hotel. I check the time and that conversation, me going to his room (which took a while since I felt weird doing it), and me finally getting my things left me at 11:30.
I'm hungry so I call an Uber and when I get the text that it's here I walk to the lobby, only to see X. I walk fast and get my arm pulled by him. "Lana, where are you going? I thought you left. You stayed?" He ask. I yank my arm and say "I'm going somewhere and I didn't leave the hotel, I left that room. And I'm leaving today, in a few hours actually. Like I said to Ski, Bye." I say as I get in the car.
I going to a mall, and my phone is blowing up with hate. - You whore - You for the team I see - How could you leave Ski - Watch she gone go to another rapper. - Trippie Redd next? - You're dumb as shit, or just have some sucky pussy for both of them to have other women
Those just a few of the comments I get from just the picture of my outfit. How did everyone know I left him. I go to Ski's snap and I see that he posted - I'm single 😢 I miss you I'm sorry
That still didn't explain why everyone knew he cheated, they even knew the girl. They kept tagging her so I go to her page and see a video of her touch him and stuff. I turn my phone off, and just enter the mall going to the food court. I get Chinese food and I eat by myself until I see Nahmir. Nahmir : So you stalking me now? : Nigga you know damn well I'm not stalking yo ass. I thought I told you I was going to the mall. Nahmir : Whatever. But since we here together let's talk. After we finish eating, we walk around the mall and talk. "So you and Ski are done now?" He asks "Yep." I answer "That's too bad because I was wondering-" "Ima cut you off right there. I'm not looking to date or be with anyone right now so if that's where you were going... stop." I say. "Damn mama, I was gonna say because I was wondering if you wanted to go to this party and get some dick." "I maybe could go to the party but I don't want any dick." I say "Cool, It's tomorrow" He says "Thanks for the early notice" I say sarcastically "Are you going or not?" He ask "Bruh Whatever. Sure" I answer. "Damn, you acting all sassy like what did I do to you?" He asks "Nigga you know exactly what your dumb ass did." "You still not over that shit?" He asks "You act like it's something so little." "It's not that big of a deal." "Nigga you fuck my old bestfriend, you treated me like shit, then had the nerve to break up with me saying "YoU dONt deServE mE" like no nigga it's the other way around" I explain "Look I'm sorry, I was bullshiting around that time but I'm a changed man." "You look like a changed boy" I joke "Don't be mad because I look young and you look like you 30" "I do not, I look good as hell and you know that." I explain "You right, I ain't gone lie." "Exactly, now hurry up so you can take me to the hotel then home." "Wait, since I'm being all nice and shit, shouldn't I get something?" He ask "As in...?" "I want you." He says "Did I not say I don't wanna-" "Just a quickie, no one gotta know. I know you want this, you loved it when you had it. Don't act like you don't love what it do to you?" He says with a grin I roll my eyes and say, "Whatever, we'll see." ••• Driving me back home
I got all my things and now me and Nahmir are heading to my home and we're pretty close. His hand has been rubbing on my thigh for the last bast five minutes. He knows that's my hot spot. "Nahmir, chill. I don't know if I'm ready to just-" "Just fuck?" He ask "Yes, we literally broke up yesterday. I can't just fuck. It wouldn't even feel right." "I ain't gone pressure you, that's wrong. It was nice seeing you Lana." "Same Nah, Bye." He waves and drives off. Home alone again.
