Once Jay confirms that I'm opening for Jah, I go to the bathroom.
I look in the mirror.... I look lazy, a mess kinda. I'm not prepared.
Well it's too late, I just hope my vocals are good enough to cancel out my appearance.
•••
The loud music playing before turns down, and I panic and leave out the bathroom to find Nahmir.
Nahmir says "Mama, you gonna do fine."
"I don't even know what song I'm singing" I say.
"Remember when you used to write? I found one of your songs in my phone." Nahmir says
"Okay how do you know I remember it?" I explain
"Trust me you will." Says Nahmir
"A new artist, never performed, the unknown, Lana" says Jay smiling.
These niggas set me up....
I grab the mic and stand in front of all these people and the song plays Teen Spirit, a song I wrote a while ago that never left my mind but I never talked about it.
"Ice under my heels, I feel it breaking. Under my heels, I feel it cracking. Foolish of me to think I had it. Emmanuel, how foolish of me to think I had it. I hear your voice behind me" I sing, and start to lose my self. Then the song mellows down.
As I keep singing I notice the sound changes, then X comes out and starts rapping.
Did they plan to remix my song.
I look at him in confusion.
X looks at me and gives me a signal to keep singing but since the tempo slow I froze. As his rapping came to an end I continued singing.
...
Then he starts performing his popular songs, and the crowd gets wild and then guess who comes out...
"AYE AYE AYEEE", Ski Mask the Slump God.
"Oh shit" ran threw my mind. I got off stage, not dramatically but I did it because there was no reason for me to be there.
I go back stage and as X then plays a slower song Ski goes back stage (btw 'back stage' is rlly a room).
I sit in a chair on my phone realizing I just trapped my self in a room w/ Ski and he sees me.
"Hey" says Ski
I don't respond and act like I can't hear him.
"I know you hear me." He says
"Can we not do this?" I ask
"We need to. Either for closure, reassurance, or even to hash it out and get bac-"
"Im gonna stop you right there, me and you aren't getting back together. We don't belong together. You prioritize parting, drinking, smoking, living out your fame, and I want more. I'm not saying marriage but I am saying I want loyalty, honesty, trust. I don't need your money, your fame, none of that other shit that you probably thought I wanted or needed. I wanted you. But you blew it." I cut him off saying.
He looks at me sad like and I ca see the sympathy on his face.
"I'm sorry. I love you. I might not show it all the time but I love you. I really didn't wanna lose you. I know was selfish, inconsiderate, and unfaithful but that's because I never had love like this." Says Ski
"That's not an excuse that I'm taking." I walk out
A single tear falls down my face as I walk out. There's X right in front of me.
He stops me and asks "Are you okay? What's wrong?"
For some reason when he asked "what's wrong?", I broke down, and instantly holds me seeing me fall down in tears.
He takes me upstairs and hides me away and takes me to a bathroom.
...
