My Grey Nights {EDITING}

Chapter 16.

" The secret to success it learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that, your in control of you life. If you don't life controls you. " ~ Tony Robbins

Chyna McCartney

Grabbing my bag with my clothes I walked to the door, "okay Sid, I'm gone!" I yelled to him in the kitchen

"Alrite, I just know that I love you just in case you don't come back" he said seriously peaking around the corner. I nodded and exited the house towards the car and started it up. Tonight Noah and I were attending my mothers 'dinner'. I know she will try and press every bottom possible and I will not let pain and my past experiences take over my mind and body tonight. In fact, I will take her bashing remarks towards me and turn then against her only to see if this was what her pleasure felt like. My mother has made pain and pleasure take over her life and I will be damn if I follow her footsteps and Noah has help express it. I'm the only one who can take control of my life and no one else. I've let my mother have the win for to long and tonight I will stand my ground.

Pulling up to Noah's house I exited the car and walked to his door. I knock on it and seconds later he opened the door and a smile spread across his face only making demure smile tug on my lips.

"Hey!" I said wrapping my arms around his neck. He chuckled, oh God. " Why are you so happy?" he said pecking my lips. I let him go and walked upstairs and he followed after closing the door. I walked into his room, it was a California king size bed that sat under a window that showed his backyard patio and built in pool. His room was decorated with navy blue, grey and white which showed a lot for his demeanor. I laid across his bed and pulled out my phone to check the time. It read four fifty-five P.M.

"You still didn't answer my question." he said crossing his arms and pulled at the hem of his grey T-Shirt and pulled it over his head showing his body. I switched my lips,

"I was happy to see you. What I can't be happy to see my baby?" I said staring at him to see if it was a problem. He smirked and tugged at him all white sweatpants and walked over to his dresser and pulled out a green V-Neck and slip it on. He walked over to the bed and climbed on top of me. Pinning my arms above my head and he bent down to my ear,

"See, I didn't have a problem until you wanted to get smart." he purred into my ear making me hot. My heart rate started to speed up and I started breathing heavier than before. He kissed my neck and squeezed my wrist, I bit my lip,

"G-get upp" I stuttered trying to hold back any moans that wanted to escape my mouth. I was becoming weak by his touch. He chuckled deeply and shook his head, he pulled his head up and his eyes were a little bit darker that before. He kissed my lips and let go of my arms and climbed off of me. I'd be lying if I didn't say my panties weren't probably soaked right now.

"Are you ready for tonight?" he asked sitting against the head board. I sat up and kicked my timberlands off and scooted over to him and he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me even closer. He grabbed the remote for the T.V that hung stiffly from the wall and pressed the power botton.

"No, not really." I said honestly. I wasn't ready to be in her presents after everything that happened and I was finally away from her.

"Mm well, she's a bitch get over it. Eventually you'll have to get along whether you like it or not she the women who give birth to you she had a choice whether to give you up or not. Honestly, I'm glad she didn't because I would've never met you." he said kissing my forehead. "but I really don't like your mother. She's confused and stuck between a fantasy and reality." I looked up at him and shook my head.