Unclaimed, Not Sorted [Random]

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I'm so sorry for not updating but my brain keeps thinking about my lack of purpose in the world and how people with cancer deserve a better life than I do-

So please don't hate me because ahh life is suddenly so confusing and I feel oddly lost :(

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 Why won't everyone understand?

It's not that I don't want to talk to you, I just can't

Trapped in a world that isn't mine, 

I haven't felt since that year, the year I lost 

And now my inner demons have taken over

Why won't you just shut up and leave me be?

I know you 'care', but there's no need

One day you'll all leave and I'll hurt more

More than I would if we were enemies

Why won't you understand that I'm not me?

Don't try to mix things up, or poison me,

The key to feeling in me is gone,

And my heart's stopped beating,

I'm sorry to say that I'm not who I used to be.

I wish that I could be the same old me

And that I could still play, and laugh, and be free

But honestly, can't you even see?

I'm a mere shadow of who I used to be.

Why can't you just leave me alone?

After so many years, I think I need peace

Far away from your plots of friendship and jealousy

So excuse me for a moment, maybe a year,

Because I'm now unfeeling, empty, 

And thanks to you, I'll never see beauty in life again.

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Thank you so much for reading, commenting or voting on this story if you have! I have like two tests tomorrow so I guess I'll go :( Have an amazing day and hopefully, I'll update soon! :)