Back Again//// Ryden **Completed**

Rememberance

Ryan's POV

Hospital food sucks. But at this point, I really don't care. Brendon stays with me 24/7. Which I'm not sure if he's allowed to or not. Spencer and Jon came over too. 

"Hey." Brendon knocks on the door. 
"You can just barge in any time you know," I say. He walks in. 
"But I'm a gentleman." He smirks. 

"A green one?" I smile. 

"Don't you dare bring up random songs... Zack still does that.." He shakes his head. 

"Aww but I like bringing up songs from the good old days." I smile. 

"How can I say no to that face. God." He grins covering my hand with him. I flinch a little. He looks at me. I nod. He grabs my hand. I keep doing this, I can't help but want to reject all touches. No matter who it is. 

"I missed you." He says. 

"Uhh, you literally saw me 4 hours ago."

"No, I mean... For those years." 
"Oh... Bren, I want you to know..."

"No, let me talk. That night... I was upset because you said you didn't want to go public, but I really wanted to announce to the world that we were dating. But now thinking back it was stupid I should have respected your choice..." 

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Flashback

"Brendon, I don't know how to say this but... I don't want to go public." I say. 

"What? Why?"

"I'm afraid of homophobic people that will insult us. I don't want that kind of heat on us." 
"I'm sure nothing will happen."

"You can't say that for sure!" 

"No one is going to-"

"Why can't you understand? What happens when everyone knows? What happens when people hate on us?"
"That won't happen!"

"How do you know that?! You know what happened to me before, I was-"

"But now is different!"

"No, it's not, people don't change that easily." 
"But people won't-"
"Stop! I don't want to go public, okay!" 

"Are you embarrassed by me?!"
"No! I just-"
"THEN WHY?"

"CAN'T YOU JUST RESPECT MY WISHES? I DON'T WANT TO GO PUBLIC ON THIS! GIVE IT SOME TIME OKAY!" 

He simply walks out the door and slams it. 

End of Flashback 

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"It's okay. I guess going public wouldn't have been that bad, but you know that I was bullied for it. I didn't want that happening again." 

"I know, I was stupid. I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too-"

"Don't-"

"No, let me speak. I'm sorry for dragging you into my problems. I'm sorry for getting you kidnapped. I'm sorry for getting you beaten up. I'm sorry that you got hurt. I'm sorry for leaving you. I-I'm so, so, sorry." 
"No, it's okay." He slowly wraps his arms around my shoulders. I slightly flinch. He looks at me. Then gives me a small squeeze. 

"Thanks for being there for me," I whisper into his ear. He looks into my eyes. I look into his. I don't know who leaned in first. I close my eyes and lean into his lips. It's a light kiss, but passionate at the same time. Like lips barely grazing but it's enough.