You Push Me, I Push Back

V

So, I had three things on my list. Homework I was assigned to. Helping Jack get Dean and Angel together. And working out a way to sort out my problem woth Jack. I never thought in a million years would my mum be giving me a forth priority. A baby brother. One that will scream, poop, scream, eat, keep me from countless nights of sleeping, and still all my attention. Just like Alex probably will. It won't be Kelly anymore.

It will be Alex, whatever they decide to call the baby, and Kelly. They'll be spending so much time with the boys that I'll be left out. The only plus is that I'll have my own room. My mum is in her thirties, so it is alright for her to have a child. But I thought she was done with kids. I'm not going to have any connection with this baby, or Alex. The baby will have a different dad. The baby will go to school qnd say, 'my half sister is nice'. Half sister. Not just sister.

And yet, we'll live under the same roof. I can already picture it now. He'll grow up, I'll lose all the attention, they'll forget me. The kid will have three kids and they won't ever know about their Aunt Kelly. Only Uncle Alex. Who isn't even blood. He's family by law. Why couldn't my mum stick with one child?

And I know I sound like a bit of a bitch.

But if my mum wanted another child, she should have done it years ago when I actually wanted a sibling. Not now when all I want is to ditch high school and move miles away from this towm. I had my life set out and might lose my perfect image with it.

You know what else is a bitch, the fact that Alex knew before me. Apparently they told him so that he knew what he was getting into. By the sounds of it, he didn't even want to apart of this family in the first place. My mum has been pregnany for three months, that's why she is always wearing flowy tops and alwayd angry when she gets home. It's her mood swings.

Alex was happy about it. Stating, and I quote, "I have always wanted a baby brother". I'm sorry mother fucker, but the baby is my brother, not yours. I'd love to say that to his face. I can already see it. He'll know Alex as Xander or Xandy, and say it in a cute way all the time. I'll be known as poo poo face. Literally. Even when he is thirty, he will know me as that.

I had a kind of argument with Danny about it, mum could hear it and Alex. He's going to put it against me. The whole school will know and they will look at me in hatred. I'll be known as the baby hater. No one would want me at their baby shower, ever. Or to even see their baby.

I haven't talked to Danny, my mum or Alex since Danny and I had a fight. In the middle of the night I literally snuck out of my room to make myself some curry and eat it while watching hings on Netflix. I cried at some point. See, my life is full of drama.

When I got to school, I probably looked like I was done with life. My mum gave Alex a ride to school, she never does that for me, I decided I would leave early and take the long way to school. I didn't want to see anyone.

When I got there, Angel and Dean were already at it and giggling like there was no tomorrow. Blimmin' hell. When are they going to get together? And I'm not saying that in a fangirl way. I'm saying it in a way that I am done with their crap.

I went to my locker and opened it, a moment later, Angel was at my side with a giddy smile on her face. "Hi." She smiles, I give her my best smile before turning back to my locker. Her smile changes into a frown. "What is wrong?"

I shake my head. "Nothing." I take out my History text book. Angel gives me a look of disbelief. I sigh, she was going to find out anyway. Presumably in six months. "My mum's having a baby."

Angel gasp and smiles brightly. "That's so great." She exclaims and swear she jumped inexcitement ten times. But she obviously read by face expression and saw that I wasn't pleased about it. "Why do you look like you don't like it?"

"Because I don't." I state and shut my locker, then we begin to walk down the hall. "My mum is going to forget about me and put all her attention on the baby. I'm going to be the one that is left behind."

"Sounds about right." I send her a glare. "But that's what I thought when my mum told me I was going to have a baby sister. But now I'm okay with it and have a great - sometimes annoying - baby sister. Are you sure that's not the only reason?"

Deep down I knew there was another reason but I couldn't find myself to find it, it was on the tip of my tongue and I couldn't say it, not to Angel or anyone. "No, there isn't. I'm going to be the oldest child and once high is done, she's gonna forget about me." I explain with a sigh. "But I guess in some ways it's okay because then I can keep on eith the eay I eanted my future to be in the first place."

"But you future included you mum, you can't just push her out of it because of kid." Angel tells and I shrug. "You've always told me about how when you're older and have an apartment-"

"With you." I add.

Angel smiles and nods. "Yes, with me, that you would have curry noodles and chicken nuggets for yiur first meal. And your mum was fine with it. She liked it and you said that when yiu were ten. Since then, you've always kept it as your priority for that to happen."

I do remember having stated that. I love chicken nuggets with curry noodles. It's always been one of my favourite meals. My umm makes it whenever I'm sad and it's usually with garlic bread. I know, it's a weird combo. But I'm weird and you've got to have weird food to stay weird. Fact.

"I know Angel, but sometimes things change and you've got to change with them." I shrug and we carry on our way as the bell has not gone yet. Something then sprints to my mind. "Also Alex Kimble was adopted by my mum, so now he's my brother by law."

Angel stops walking and looks at me, I stop just in front of her and look back. "Okay, now I understand why you are so worried." Angel states and I nod. Maybe I should have said that first.