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chapter twelve

I heard laughter and a guitar through the door, not knowing if I should leave or go inside. But then, his voice was to be heard. 

'Where do I start? All these thoughts inside my head collide and I decide I'm staying in tonight. They say, "Follow your heart" but it's beating uncontrollably, I can't hear what it's telling me this time.'

Without thinking, I pushed the door open to see Daniel with his guitar, sitting on the seat I used to be on. The music stopped and so did the singing. I looked at the man, not knowing how to react. Everyone looked at me but my eyes were focused on my love. ''Daniel.'' He let the guitar down and gave me a soft smile. I felt the tears streaming down my face and without hesitation I jumped into his arm, catching him off guard as we both stumbled against the table. ''Hey?'' He looked at me confused but with a smile. ''You must be Y/n.'' My heart dropped and I looked behind me to see everyone with sad smiles on their faces. ''I recognize your voice from the song my mom showed me.'' I let go of him, taking a few steps away. ''So..'' He nodded. ''I remember a little bit. Your letter helped.'' I felt the couch stopping me. 

''You're awake.'' He nodded with a smile. ''I am.'' 

''You don't remember.'' Again a nod. ''I don't.''

I felt a hand on my lower back. Jonah stood up and wrapped me inside a big hug. ''We tried calling you.'' I shook my head. ''I forgot my phone. I though you still  had my old number.'' He shook his head. ''Thought you didn't want to hear from us.'' I had to laugh a little, ignoring the tears on my face. ''I was waiting the whole time.'' I looked to my side to see Daniel smiling at me. ''I can't believe you're awake.'' My hands made their way to touch his face, quickly putting them down again. I didn't want to scare him or make him feel uncomfortable. ''So, you're recording a new song?'' I took a step away from Daniel. ''Your song.'' It was still so weird to hear his voice. It made me feel like I was home after so many weeks. ''Could have thought about that.'' I let out a soft laugh and turned towards the rest of the boys, all of them looking at me. 

''So, you went on tour.'' I sat down next to Corbyn and nodded. ''Don't ask me why.'' Zach leaned forward. ''Why?'' Everyone started to laugh and I leaned back again. ''Had to get away from everything.'' Silence took over and I looked at Daniel who was still looking at me with a smile. He was confused but in a way, he knew that Y/n was an important key to get back his memories. It felt weird, not knowing what had happened the past 2 years. The last thing he can remember properly, was their first america tour. Which was in 2017. After that he only sees small parts of what used to be his life. 

''How was it?'' Jack leaned his head on my shoulder and looked up to me with a smile. I had to laugh and shrug which led to Jacks head falling down. ''Good, I guess. Weird being on stage alone. Froy and I had a fight, my tour manager was a complete bitch and I got food poisoning the second day. All in one, good.'' 

I looked around to see the boys with their all too familiar smiles. 

''Sounds interesting to say the least.'' Jonah laughed and looked at Daniel, who was looking at me, a little confused. ''Froy?'' My heart dropped, realizing the only thing he knows is that him and I are dating, or used to date. So hearing an unknown name surely made him feel weird.

''A friend of mine I met a year or so ago.'' I smiled at him reasuring. ''He went on tour with me to support me trough all of this.'' He nodded and looked away for the first time since I entered the room.

''How has it been here?'' Daniel looked up again and shrugged. ''I don't even know.'' I could tell how weird he felt. Talking to a girl he didn't know, at least that's what he thinks. He doesn't know her. She is someone that gives him the feeling of love, but at the same time he is scared. Scared of what happened between them and what's going to happen to them. 

''You still living in your house?'' He shook his head. ''Staying with my parents for some time. At least until I figure some stuff out.'' 

I chuckled  a little, trying to lift the mood. But deep down I realized that nothing will be the way it has been before. And it hurt. The boy I fell in love with, was gone. And somehow, I knew that he won't come back. ''I should probably get back to my flat. It's been a while.'' I tried saving myself from having to keep up with this conversation much longer. Daniel smiled a little and straightened up. ''I'll see you around?'' He gave me a hopeful smile, to which I just shrugged. ''I guess, somehow.'' Before he could ask or say anything else, I waved at everyone in the room, muttering a soft 'bye' and left. 

As the door closed behind me, a pit created itself inside of me. This was, again, the moment I would leave them. And maybe for the better this time. I could finally let go of them, without having to fear that Daniel would come back, looking for me. Because this time, Daniel didn't know me or our history. 

Walking up to the elevator, I pressed the button to call it. ''You're really leaving?'' I spun around and saw Jonah standing there. He looked tired. ''Yeah, I should go take a look at my plants.'' I lied. Before going on tour, I gave them to my neighboor, knowing they'd die if I kept them. Jonah smiled a little. ''True.'' The door behind me opened up and I slowly walked inside, backwards. ''I'll see you around?'' Now I was the one, asking the question. Jonah nodded. ''I guess, somehow.'' We chuckled a little, repeating the same words that were spoken some moments before. ''It was good to see you.'' I pressed the button for the lobby before nodding. ''Yeah, you too, Jo.'' The door slowly closed, leaving me alone in the elevator. It was painful seeing Jonah again and having to leave so soon. But in the end it would be the best, won't it? 

Honestly, I didn't know. But whatever would happen in the future, was now not in my hands. Deep down I was praying. Praying for everything to go back to the way it was.