Lovely Chaos

Emotional Abuse

I say what I feel
I feel what I say
Fear tells me you dont feel the same
Doubt seconds that motion
I said I love you
I proved it
Over and over
I promised forever

The first time you showed me your dark hues
I knew that day
It was my duty to bring color to your world
Shed light in your darkness
But your words
Punched with wine reds
Your actions
Left blues
I tried to wash our canvas
And you took a sword to my efforts

I said I love you
I proved it
Over and over
I promised forever

I made that mask you wear
The one that everyone loves
The one that hides the monster you are
There is no time of day for your darkness to peak
As long as I am there
You whip and strangle every bit of light from me
I used to be happy around you
I used to feel safe
But you take pride in breaking the one person who will never leave

I love you
And that's where you vexed me
How you hexed me
I'm drowning in the good times we had
The struggles we faced
The late nights we shared
The memories
So I'm too busy dying in the good
Too know you are killing me
I only wanted you to say it back
I wanted you to see I'm bleeding out
I wanted you to care

I just might leave
But it surely will kill me
What's worse is I don't think you would stop me

I said I love you
I proved it
Over and over
I promised...