Lovely Chaos

Is it Worth It?

I love you
But I'm not in love with you
I want to be
But you have raised too many red flags
Too many questions
My trust is on the run and I have no intentions of stopping her
Not until you make us feel safe here

You want my heart you say
Would it amaze you if I said, the key lies in my mind
And no amount of orgasms will make me love you?

The moment you acknowledge that I am your woman
And not the girls you're used to
Is the moment everything will change
even me

You are too infatuated with the game
Not knowing that you are playing with the coach
I have given you drills and even taught you how to do trick plays
But you are stubborn in the basics you learned from who came before me

Do not put me in a box
It will be your biggest mistake
Your biggest disappointment
I am not like anyone you have ever experienced before and after
there will be an after
Because my mind, heart and spirit
Have already left
My body sits here unsatisfied
And unimpressed
But she is the only one rooting for you