Lovely Chaos

Unbelievable

We were magnetic

We were envied

We were admired

You had me falling without ever kissing you

You had me stuck without saying you loved me

You were simply too unrealistic

And I could see that

Your mask didn't cover your face well

But I ignored the ugliness that hid underneath

I couldn't help it with the way you held me

The way you convinced me that life was empty before I met you.

But after our story said the end

I noticed the hole you left in my heart

A hole I never knew you were digging

It makes no sense why you would play that wicked game on me

I was signing away my free will when you first looked into my eyes

My judgment has a delayed reaction

And its too late to say anything to you but good bye

It's almost insane to say that I despise your very existence

When for so long, I cherished being in your presence

I can't go to that city anymore

You ruined the excitement of travel,

You ruined me

And I still want nothing more than to kiss you, hold you, and tell you what my doubts have all but forbid me from saying

You have left my heart in shambles

It has suited up for war against my instincts

It has learned to hold its breath

My heart is suicidal

And my mind is no longer standing in its way

I can't feel

I can't hear

I've been burdened with the sight of you

In every man's eyes

The thought of you every night

The smell of you on my clothes.

You were supposed to be my Othello

But instead you were Iago.