Anxiety

Chapter 20: New Beginnings

*Y/n PoV*

"Kookie do you want something?" I asked him, handing him the tablet.

"No, I'm ok." He said eyeing it. I knew there was something he wanted, he just wasn't going to say it.
"Well, I want you to pick something. Let's go. You haven't eaten anything since breakfast." I told him. He looked up at me with pouting eyes.

"I don't want you to spend money on me." He said.

"I don't care. Pick some things." I said more forcefully. He picked up the tablet and looked through them.

"Don't worry about the calories. Ok?" I told him. He nodded. He ordered the first thing he saw which was a muffin and put the tablet down. I later picked it up and added a couple more things and pressed send the order. Minutes later a woman walked over with a tray of all the things our table had ordered. Somethings were in tin and plastic covering takeout containers already.

"Hey, Noah and I are going to go to the mall, so when we leave, remind me to give you my keys." He nodded to me. "Unless you want to come with us." He looked at the two of us.

"I wouldn't mind that. My mother has a shift at work tonight so I can tell her to drive my car up and call her when she wants me to pick her up." I nodded. I looked to s/o. He said nothing and picked up his muffin and ate it before I could tell him too. I then pushed a bagel in his direction.

s/o walked slower than the rest of us as they wandered around the huge mall.

"Y/n do you mind helping Noah out? He wants to buy clothes and you know I'm not very good at finding him more feminine clothes." Alex said. Noah blushed looking at me to see what my reaction would be.

"Yes, I can help out." I nodded.

"Cool, There are a couple stores I want to go to quickly. Mind if I dip out for a sec?" I knew he was probably trying to sneak out for a smoke. He didn't like smoking around Noah.

"Give me your cigarettes and you're lighter." I help out my hand.

"I swear I quit. I don't have any on me." He raised his hands.

"If I smell it on you when you come back I will kill you." I pointed at him. He nodded and left the three of us alone. "Is there any places you want to go shopping Noah?" I asked.

"I don't know. Daddy always takes me to the places he shops at." He whispered.

"How about we try Fizz or Plus?" I asked him. It was one of the places that weren't marked by Womens and Mens. Just racks of clothes. It wasn't very liked by people who were homophobic.

"I want a pair of overalls." He said pointing to the rack labelled Overalls. I chuckled letting him look through the rack to find the pair he wanted in his size. He handed me the pair he liked. They were light blue and would be shorter than his knees. He continued to go through the racks as s/o followed behind.

"Kookie why don't you pick out anything."

"I'm ok." He said.

"You wear the same three shirts all week. Don't think I don't know you have no clothes." She rolled her eyes. I watched Alex walk over to us in the store.

"Alex. Look what I picked out." Noah smiled starting to grab things from me that I was holding for him

"Show me what you picked out Noah." He smiled. I started going through the rakes pulling things out like sweatpants and t-shirts. I found an oversized one that would go to about his mid-thigh in white.

"I would like to see you in this." I held it up to him.

"That's a big shirt." He said.

"You're supposed to wear it to bed with your boxers silly." I shook my head. "What do you think?" I asked him.

"I like it." He nodded. I handed it to him along with the sweatpants I had grabbed him. I continued to pull things off asking if he liked them and he either nodded or shook his head.

"Do you think these are your size?" I asked holding up a pair of jeans.

"I don't know." He shrugged.

"Why don't you just try them on?" I asked him. He looked at me.

"Are you pitying me because you know I don't have anything or any friends?" He asked bluntly.

"What?!" I said taken back. Was this him speaking or him second-guessing he was good enough to have people who cared for him? "s/o I don't pity you. You have friends. You have me, you have Alex, you have Noah. We are our friends."

"They are only hanging around me because of you." He pouted.

"s/o they want to be your friend. That's how you make friends. You hang out with them." I told him.

"Ok." He nodded.

"Why don't you pick out something you want," I told him holding a couple shirts and pants already.

"I would like a new pair of shoes." He whispered.

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A/n: I finally figured out names for these two boys. Only took me like five thousand years. Anyway, I am sorry for the story spam that is about to happen. I wrote a lot lately.