Bullet Holes

Prologue

It wasn't me. It never was

They did it.

They were in charge, I was just watching, observing.

Scared and confused.

Why can't I do anything?

All they do is ruin all the things I've done before hand.

I wanna help and put together the things I've destroyed but it's barely possible.

They won't let me.

I keep fighting but it's too hard. They keep winning.

"I'm so so sorry, I didn't mean that" are the things I mostly say when I'm back to normal. I barely am though.

I keep losing friendships over things I don't remember. Sometimes I do. Those are the worse

Why can't I just be normal? Or is this normal?

My mom never explained, at least of what I know.

Why can't it just end?