Bullet Holes

~8~

Hey! To the few people reading this, thank you. I love writing so much, it inspires me to do positive things. This chapter may get triggering, and It is about self-harm. I know i said i wasn't gonna write about that anymore, but im not triggered my it anymore. I've recently been doing good. And i really wanted to get this is in the story.

Tyler's POV

After hours of us hugging and crying together she finally speaks up. "Hey, Ty?"

I manage to stumble out, "Y-yeah?"

"Was that the Blurry person you were talking about earlier?"

"Y-yeah, that w-was h-him."

"You don't like him don't you?"

"I h-hate h-him so much." I say with as much as anger as I can show without screaming. He ruins everything and when I try to fix things, all he does he fuck it up again.

"What happened?"

I need to tell her everything so I can get help, maybe she will understand what he does to me."All he wants to do is ruin everything and that's why everyone at school hates me, because Blurry basically yelled and screamed at people telling them my secrets and telling them that I'm a freak."

"You're not a freak, Ty" she reassures me.

A thought popped up in my head and I look at my clock and realize that we should be at school. What happened? Why are we home?

"Jen?"

Her head tilts back up to look at me, "Yeah?"

"Why are we at my house?"

"Oh, Blurry wanted to skip, so followed him and he wanted to come here." She says slowly.

"Of course, he does that sometimes." I say while rolling my eyes.

A girl speaks up in my mind,

Hey! I heard everything that happened and I'm sorry about Blurry, he wouldn't let me talk.

"Blurry does that a lot." I say not realizing that Jenna is here. I see that she has crinkled her eyebrows and realize that she heard me. "Oh, sorry, Grace was telling me something."

Jenna smiles, "Oh, that's okay."

We just sat there. Waiting for nothing. Just chilling.

I couldn't stop myself from looking into her beautiful sky blue eyes. And her beautiful dirty blonde hair that was cut off right on her shoulders. The way she stared at the ground like she was watching the most fascinating thing in the world. The smile on her face that came from me smiling at her. The laugh I get back from a joke of mine. I think I am falling in love with her, but I only just met her. I can't just ruin our friendship already.

She starts to giggle about something, so beautiful, "Ty, What are you staring at?"

I snap out of trance, "N-nothing, I just was thinking."

"About?" She giggles again.

I smile at her beauty, "School, I'm worried that I'm gonna get in trouble again. Blurry always likes to skip."

"I sure you'll be fine."

"But what about you? You have never skipped before and you just started school here. I'm sorry." I blurt out, feeling bad about ruining things for Jenna. She deserves better than that.

She smiles at me lovingly, "It's fine, Ty. If I would've stayed at school things would have been worse for you right now."

I smile back at her, thinking at what to say. I'm not really good with words. But luckily I don't have to think, she beats me.

"Tyler, I wanna respect your privacy but... why do you always wear that jacket? I'm just worried." And my smile immediately goes away.

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I pause for a moment thinking about what I'm going to say. "I-It's... b-because of s-something that happened to me a while b-back." I manage to stutter out.

"What happened?" She sounded worried.

"W-well, u-uhh," I started to tear up. "I-uhh." I started to slowly take off my jacket, with tears streaming down my face and onto the carpet. I only had a tank top under underneath, so she saw my whole arms.

I heard a gasp from Jenna as I put jacket on the floor next to me. She started crying with me. She had no words. Just like I don't either.

Jenna's POV

I studied his arms, as tears ran down my cheeks. I can't believe he did this to himself. I have no words to say but, why? Why would he do this to himself?

I see examine his body a little more and see that there is dried blood on the shirt. The shirt is a little see through, so I see that there are also cuts on his stomach and chest.

"Jenna? Y-you okay?" He starts to worry about me.

"I-I'm fine, b-but are you? W-w-why do you do this t-to yours-self?" I start breaking down for the second time today. I don't know why he has such an awful life.

He slowly wraps his scarred arms around me. "Jen, it's okay, I quit. I don't wanna do that to myself anymore." I hear him sobbing in my shoulder, and his tears streaming down my back.

"I promise I will stop, I will fight it, I promise." He cries quietly into my ear.

I mumble into his ear, "I trust you, Ty. I trust you."

Slowly, he leaves the hug and he stands up, and I join him. He turns around and leaves the room, I follow. We walk into the bathroom, Tyler shuts the door. He opens a drawer and moves a few things and picks up a bag full of bloodied razors.

A tear streams down my face.

A tear streams down his face.

He opens the bag and takes out a few, and glances at me to see if I was okay. He turns around and opens the toilet seat and slowly tosses each razor into the toilet. Flushes. And he repeats till they are all gone. Many tear have fallen from our faces today, I hope that there are no more surprises from Tyler that will make me cry again. Mostly because when I cry, he cries and I hate seeing him cry.

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Tyler's POV

I need to do this, I need to do this. She is so beautiful, I just can't wait any longer. I inch a little bit closer to her. I start to lean in. She closes her eyes, accepting it. So I close my eyes too, and I press my lips onto hers and she kisses back. I put my hands on her face and she does the same.

After a few seconds, I pull back and open my eyes. She opens hers and we smile at each other and she's the one to break the silence.

"Tyler, I-I didn't know you felt that way about me."

"You saved me, from myself. You are so b-beautiful, I couldn't wait any longer. I really like you."

She smiled, "I really like you too."

We go back to my room and we both lay head up on my bed, talking about school, and other little things that pop up in our head.

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