Red// Max Mayfield

A/n and i feel bad about it

You guys will probably be upset this is another a/n and not an update and I'm really super sorry about that, I'm working on the chapter. I feel bad for not posting but I'm highkey stressed and sad.

But I started school today.

I fucking hate school.

I had an anxiety attack before I even left my house and I just felt sick all day. I literally would rather be doing almost anything else.

School is a place I'm surrounded by a whole bunch of people I can't be myself (fully) around. It's honestly the worst place.

Spanish has so many oral aspects and that terrifies me to death.
My bio teacher is my earth science teacher from last year...I highly dislike him. He makes me so uncomfortable and he literally cannot teach that well.

I have very supportive friends there at school with me but does anyone else feel it's just not enough. I had a heavy heart all day today.

I really don't like people especially ones as judgmental as highschool students.
One slip up and everything could be over for me.

I'm so exhausted, I got three hours of sleep last night. My anxiety was just off the handle. More so than usual.

I miss my brother, he went off to college a few weeks ago and just going to school without him this morning darkened my mood.

Anyway next post WILL be an update. I'm shooting for sometime this week. I just want to give you guys my best work. I keep writing the chapter and then erasing it because I hate it. I'm really trying tho.

Thanks for reading my rant of you did. If you didn't that's okay, thanks for being here to read the book.

I'm gonna try not to do another a/n like this because I know it annoying and I'm sorry. I just really needed to rant especially somewhere people don't really know me. It makes these things so much easier.

Love you guys. Thanks for the reads, votes and comments they mean the world to me

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     A teenager trying to get through this crazy fucked up life.