Seven Deadly Sins

A Note From Jimin

To: Her,

Ever since I've been friends with Hoseok, he always mentions you. The girl who had every thing a man would ever want. He always tells me how he spent his time with you, how funny you are yet so sweet. You were perfect from what I have heard. You're name was everywhere even though you weren't even there. He was always smiling while thinking of you as we practice our dance together. You were his inspiration and so as mine.

I didn't know that a man can fall for a girl from other's story. I was fascinated by who you are. I adore you so much even thought I dont know you personally but my eyes would also light up when Hoseok mentions you. I wanted to meet you, to talk to you and just watch you all day long, as I have know how many years have passed without you that could complete me.

It was all planned out. Hoseok will take you to our party and then I will talk to you, I will make you see how much Im interested in you. Hoseok knew about my feelings and he was happy about it because he thinks I deserve someone like you. But everything changed when Jungkook interfered.

It was all romantic. A perfect shot. A perfect moment. Only that I am not the one whom you are staring with. I wasn't the one you caught slipping. I wasn't the one who spilled a drink on you. No, I wasn't Jungkook. Because if I was him, I wouldn't hurt someone like you.

I didn't expected it. I didn't expect everything will turn out like that. Because all I know is that I was with Jungkook one saturday and he gave you that beautiful dress I helped him pick, and it suits you beautifully, then one day, you and Hoseok stopped speaking to each other. Hoseok was furious and I couldn't understand why.

And it was because of Jungkook. Because Jungkook likes you. Because you like Jungkook. Because you didn't listened to Hoseok. Because you chose Jungkook over him. And because he knew about my feelings for you. He didn't want you hurt but I'd always want you happy.

But I also wanted to be happy even just for one day, so I invited you for dinner. I didn't know Jungkook will see us and Im sorry because that's were it all started. You fighting with him. Him being jealous about it. I was the one to blame, I couldn't argue with that.

You started talking to me after that. Maybe that's what I just needed, a little bruise and some cuts. But you will just come to me when you're hurt and scared and just unsure of everything. But it was okay, it was still great having you talking to me.

What's not great is when I know that you are crying everynight. I saw them. I saw you tears glistening as you hold them back. I saw how red your eyes are from crying. I saw how your undereyes became darker from the sleepless nights, I wish I could take the pain away.

I became a shoulder to cry on for you but you still begged for Jungkook. I wanted to stop you that night, I didn't want you on your knees and Jungkook's eyes are staring at you coldly. But I felt hurt and sad. Why can't you see that Im here?

You love sa greatly that you didn't notice the people you should be loving, you were loving the wrong ones. And you'll do everything for the one you love even if it means you will be in danger and I have to be a part of that danger.

I had to choose Taehyung. I had to save him from what he did even though it hurts me how you fall on you knees while begging for your life. You did begged for me but only for your life. I can still remember your shocked face when you saw me arrive and face a gun on you.

You called out my name many times but I had to close my ears for you. I had to pretend that I was deaf to save my brother. And Im sorry because I knew him since then but I only knew you for a short time, that's why I had to choose him. I had to choose someone that is more significant in my life, and you weren't that, all I could remember was that you are the protagonist of Hoseok's stories.

Im sorry, I should've stopped him. I should've chosen you if I would knew that you will affect me this much. I almost became crazy thinking of you everyday, regretting everything I did.

I chose to end your life as I chose to end my chance of showing you how much I love you.

-Jimin.