Seven Deadly Sins

A Note From Suga

To: My Brothers,

Everything is lost. Every one of you is gone. I couldn't keep my promise. That I will save you. That I will protect you. That I will fix this. I couldn't.

And Im sorry to each one of you. Im sorry, Jin hyung, I couldn't be a great hyung and protect the younger ones. Im sorry you scold me so much because I wouldn't move a single muscle each time you are in the house. The truth is, I don't move because I know that you can do it. I trust your skills in parenting our younger brothers. I trust your doings and I know that you have our backs. But now, without you, its so hard. I dont know how I can survive this anymore.

Namjoon, Im sorry I couldn't understand you sometimes. I couldn't understand your reasonings. I couldn't figure out how your mind works that sometimes Im being off track. Im sorry I had pointed my finger on you. Im sorry I didn't believed you. Its just that, everything was a mess and I couldn't think straight. And I know I should've because you were going to the right path. We were almost there but I lost you.

Hoseok, Im sorry I dont talk to you that much. Im sorry I didn't check on you when I had the chance. Im sorry you had to keep it to yourself. Im sorry you became like that. Im sorry I couldn't be a nice brother to you. Im sorry that I blamed you too. Im sorry I sent you to the asylum again when I shouldn't have. I still wonder if I didn't send you there then maybe you are still alive right now. You would be screaming and laughing all over again. You would be the same sun shine again. But you weren't and Im at fault here.

Jimin Im sorry. Im sorry for everything I've done. I should've talked to you then when everything was still going on with Jungkook. I should've comforted you too. I should've thought about your sake and didn't slack off. There are so many things that I wish I would've done but I couldn't turn back time and Im sorry. I should've been the greatest brother but I couldn't.

Taehyung, Im sorry. I should've kept my eyes on you. And taught you how to control your lust. Im sorry I didn't lecture you most of the times. Maybe it was my fault why you did it. Maybe it was me who lacks in everything. Maybe it was really my fault. I was to blame. And you shouldn't have gone to Jhope's that night. You shouldn't have if only I knew it would be your last night. I should've came home sooner.

Jungkook, you trusted me on this but I couldn't do it. And Im sorry. Im sorry I broke your trust because Im not strong enough to end this. Im sorry I couldn't protect and save them like how you wanted me to. Im sorry because I disappointed you. Im sorry for everything.

It will be hard. So hard because I know I wouldn't find another like you guys. You are one of a kind and now you are gone. And Im sorry and I hope that I will see you soon.

-Suga.