Cameron Dallas Is My Boyfriend

Chapter33

Warning! There is self harm in this chapter, if you find it triggering or don't like reading about it skip this chapter!

I put on the radio and the song was Ella Henderson's new single- Ghost. I started to sing along then heard Matt giggle, "what" I said smiling, "you have an amazing voice" he said, I blushed then carried on singing. I parked the car then we walked to Costa. We sat down at a small table in the corner, I then got up and ordered 2 hot chocolates, I took them back to the table then sat down. I looked up at Matt then looked down again, "I thought you was gonna die Matt" I said holding back the tears, "well lucky you saved me" he said, "yeah like you saved me" I said then smiled at him. We drunk our hot chocolates then headed back to Matts house.

His parents weren't home so we cuddled in the living room and watched American Horror Story. "I love you Holly" he said, I looked up at him then started kissing him. We stood up not breaking the kiss, I then wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He carried me upstairs then laid me on the bed. I took off my jumper, and Matt stared at me with wide eyes, "what?" I said then looked down, I forgot I wasn't wearing a bra. I blushed then carried on kissing him. Matt then started taking off my leggings but stopped half way. "Holly what have you done to yourself?" He asked, I sat up and looked at my legs, I forgot about all my cuts on my legs, Matt grabbed my wrists then stood up, he started throwing things at the wall. "Why holly?" he yelled starting to cry, "Matt calm down" I said then I stood up and pulled my leggings up and put my jumper back on. Matt ran out of the room then a few minutes later came back with a knife, he then rolled up his sleeve, "Matt don't!" I cried, he then started cut his wrist. "Matt don't!" I screamed then grabbed his wrist, I took the knife away and placed it on his desk. "I'm sorry" I said then I heard foot steps coming up the stairs. "Matt what have you done!" Cameron shouted from the doorway, I pushed Cameron out the way then ran back to the cliff. I stood on the edge of the cliff and cried, I was about the jump but then someone grabbed my arm, "Holly please don't" Cam cried, "why? no one will miss me!" I screamed, "if you jump I will jump" Cam said, "I'm going crazy Cam, I can't take it anymore!" I cried then hugged him tight. We walked back to my car and drove home.

Once we got home I laid down on the sofa and cried. I heard Cameron speaking to someone then he walked into the living room. "I just spoke to a doctor, he said we have to go see him tomorrow" he said then sat down on the floor facing me. "What's wrong with me Cam" I said starting to cry even more, "everything's going to be okay" he said then kissed my forehead. We both stood up and walked upstairs to our room, I put on my pyjamas and laid in bed, Cam came and cuddled up to me, "it's my mums funeral in two days" I whispered, "you don't have to go baby" Cam said, "I want to go, I need to say goodbye to my mum" I said, he leaned over and kissed my cheek then we went to sleep.