Cameron Dallas Is My Boyfriend

Chapter19

Warning! There is Self Harm in this chapter, if you find it triggering or don't like reading about it skip this chapter!

It was silent the whole way back to Cameron's house, I couldn't cry because I had cried too much so I just stared silently out of the window. When we got back to Cameron's I went straight up to his room then laid on his bed. Cameron came up and laid on the bed next to me, he kissed my cheek and whispered in my ear "everything's going to be okay, she's in a better place now looking down on you", he wrapped his arm around me and went to sleep, I couldn't sleep at all, I just laid there in the dark looking at the wall.

In the morning Cameron got up and started running me a bath, I still hadn't slept, I was still just staring at the wall. Cameron knelt down next to the bed where I was laying, "hey gorgeous, I ran you a bath" he said then kissed my forehead, I didn't move and then I felt hands wrap around my waist, "come on get up babe" he said lifting me up, I stood up without saying anything then walked into the bathroom and locked the door. I sat down on the bathroom floor and thought about self harming, I had done so well but I just couldn't help it, I grabbed one of Cameron's razor blades, I snapped it and took the blade, I placed it on my wrist and sliced it across my skin, I kept doing it just looking at the wall. I heard the handle on the bathroom door "babe you alright I haven't heard you get into the bath yet" I heard Cameron say, I didn't answer him, Cameron was starting to get worried so he started trying to undo the lock, he managed to do it and looked down at me on the floor with blood all over my arms. "Oh my god stop doing that don't hurt yourself!" He said then grabbed my hand and took the razor and flushed it down the toilet. He lifted me up and put me in the bath and started washing the blood off of me. He then lifted me up and wrapped a towel round me then carried me to the sofa, he went to the kitchen and got plasters. He ran back to where I was laying and grabbed my wrist and kissed every cut before placing a plaster on them. I still didn't say anything.

Cameron went to his wardrobe then got one of his tops, he got me out of the wet clothes and put his top on me. He grabbed a blanket then wrapped it round me. I finally went to sleep for a little while.